#and got frustrated at not understanding what anybody ever meant by it

[braintapes]

evil drawing advice your brushstrokes should be COWARDLY and WHIMPERING and snivelliing pathetically when you draw them. and so you should make as many short, shaky, shivering lines as you possibly can

[yoyomomiko]

Hiiii, I love your writing sm! <33

Could you write monster trio hcs with an s/o who is completely oblivious to their flirting?

Obvs u don't have to write this if u don't wanna! :]

pairings: monster trio x female reader

cw: luffy doesn't really flirt (I don't know how luffy would be flirting I'm sorry), not proofread , probably contains grammar mistakes, english isn't my first language!!

— (a/n): okay so like... I kind of got carried away and didn't really stay with the request and I just realized it now that i'm done writing :(( it just doesn't feel right, I mean, they're not really flirting... it's more like, indirect flirting, you know?? i'm veryyy sorry!!! :(( -> m.list

— LUFFY

Luffy doesn't even understand the concept of flirting, he simply doesn't know how to flirt. He just does things that feel right, like holding your hand all the time or hugging you randomly.

He CONSTANTLY invades your personal space, leaning in way too close when he talks, but you just assume he's always like that (which, in a way, is true).

Luffy will offer you food, which is a huge deal, but you just think he's being generous and thank him without reading into it.

He calls you "his favourite person" or "his girl", but you just assume it's meant to be platonically.

He'll grab your hand and swing it while walking, and when you ask why he simply shrugs. "Dunno, feels right!"

If another guy talks to you, Luffy pouts and clings to you, but you just think he's being his usual affectionate self.

If you ever find yourself in danger, Luffy's protective instincts go overdrive. However, he doesn't exactly know how to express it in a way that makes sense.

He gives you his hat when it's sunny, grinning at you joyfully, like it's a big deal. And then you're just like "Aw, thanks!" And you don't understand why he looks so disappointed (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

Luffy likes sitting next to you during meals, pressing his leg against yours. But you just pull away since you think he just needs more room.

He LITERALLY tells you "I like you a lot!" And you're just like "I like you too!" And ruffle his hair.

He tells you that he'll protect you forever, with the most serious expression ever, and you'll just assume he's being a good captain.

Whenever you hug him, he picks you up and spins you around, grinning like an idiot.

He trusts you with his hat. Like, he trusts you. He lets you wear it all the time, because he knows you'll take care of it. Heck, he's the one placing it on your head! You don't really think much of it, though.

Eventually, Luffy gets frustrated and just blurts out "I wanna be your boyfriend!" And waits for you to finally get it.

———☆

Luffy had been looking for you all morning, walking around the ship, asking everyone where you were. When he finally spotted you on the deck, sitting with Usopp, he rushed over excitedly. He felt his chest tighten whenever he saw you talking with anybody else, but he always brushed it off.

"[Y/N]! I need you!" Luffy grinned, grabbing your hand and pulling you away from Usopp's conversation.

"What's wrong?" You asked, chuckling a bit at his sudden enthusiasm.

"I just wanted to talk to you! You always hang out with everyone else, but you never hang out with me!" Luffy pouted, pulling you along toward the bow of the ship. He threw himself down on the ground dramatically, patting the spot next to him. "Come, sit with me!"

You raised an eyebrow, a bit amused as you leaned over him. "Are you really this clingy all the time?" You teased, a smile tugging at your lips.

"Yeah!" Luffy exclaimed with a wide grin, nudging you to sit next to him. As soon as you sat down, he immediately leaned against you, resting his head on your shoulder. "I just like being close to you. You're my favorite person!"

You smiled and ruffled his hair, thinking he was being his usual goofy self. "You're my favourite person too." You replied, smile widening a bit. "You're a great captain."

He grinned, but then he got serious, standing up straight, staring at you. "No, no, I mean... I like you! I really like you!" He repeated, a little louder this time, a faint pink decorating his cheeks.

You blinked at him, not quite processing it. "Aw, that's sweet! I really like you too."

Luffy just whined, burying his face in his hands as he quietly mumbled something under his breath. You just laughed, patting him on the back as he continued whining. "I think you need a nap, Luffy!"

— ZORO

Zoro isn't the best with words, so his flirting is more about physical gestures, like carrying your things and such.

He always makes sure to sit next to you, no matter where you are, but you just assume it's a coincidence.

He trains shirtless around you more than necessary, subtly flexing, but you never seem to notice.

Speaking of training, he helps you train, standing behind you to correct your form, giving you advice.

I already said he's not the best with words, but he has a tendency to compliment you, although not directly. He might praise your abilities in a fight. You don't really think twice about it, but to Zoro, it's his own form of adoration for you.

He always glares at Sanji when he's flirting with you, but you just think they're bickering as usual.

If another man shows interest in you, Zoro's natural reaction is to stare them down with a glare. You'll never notice his intense gaze, because you think that he's just annoyed by something unrelated.

If you ask for help reaching something, he doesn't just simply hand it to you. He lifts you up effortlessly, just as an excuse to feel you in his arms.

If you're tired, he'll literally carry you to the girl's room. You just think he's being a good friend, as if he does it for everyone else (he doesn't).

He loves it when you nap near him during his training, he just likes your presence. You always think it's just because he's comfortable around you.

If you get hurt, he's the first to scold you. "Be more careful." He's the one patching you up, not letting Chopper get near you (unless it's a serious injury).

Zoro's way of showing affection is through silent protection. You'll never notice that he's doing it for you specifically, and he won't say anything to make it obvious.

He also kind of teases you playfully, as a form of affection. He'll make fun of you when you do something silly, but he's never too mean about it.

He gets SUPER protective in battle, always watching your back. He can't bring himself to look at you badly wounded.

Literally EVERYONE notices how protective he is of you, but somehow you never do. Even strangers think so.

Like I've said before, he finds excuses to touch you. For example, gently guiding you through crowds by the small of your back.

He also somehow always catches you when you trip. Right before you hit the ground, he's there, arms wrapped around you and helping you stand back on your feet.

Eventually, he just grabs your face one day and says something like "Damn it, I like you. Get it now?"

———☆

You were standing near the railing, gazing out at the ocean, watching the sunset, completely lost in your thoughts. That was, until you heard heavy footsteps approaching behind you.

"You've been standing there forever. You lost or something?" Zoro's voice came from beside you, his usual gruff voice a little softer.

You glanced at him as a smile tugged at your lips. "Nah, just thinking. The ocean looks really pretty right now."

Zoro leaned against the railing next to you, arms crossed over his chest. He wasn't exactly great at this whole flirting thing, but if Sanji could do it, how hard could it be? He decided to go for something subtle. Something cool.

"Yeah, well..." He muttered, his gaze lingering on you a second too long. "It's not the only thing that looks pretty around here."

You turned to him, blinking in confusion. "Oh yeah! The ship looks great in this lighting too." You smiled as you took a look around, completely missing the way Zoro's expression dropped.

He sighed, shaking his head slightly before he tried again. "That's... Not what I meant."

You furrowed your brows in confusion. "Oh, you meant the sunset, huh? Yeah. It's really nice."

Zoro stared at you for a long moment, his lips parting slightly, trying to process how this was going so terribly wrong. He tried again, this time leaning just a little closer, lowering his voice. "I was talking about you, idiot."

You blinked at him, slightly tilting your head to the side. "Me?"

Zoro nodded, waiting, praying for the realization to hit you already.

"Ohhh." You finally broke the silence, and for a moment, his heart skipped a beat.

"That's really sweet, Zoro! You think I look nice too?" You chuckled, as if he had just complimented your outfit instead of attempting to flirt with you.

Zoro groaned, running a hand down his face. "Yeah, sure, that's what I meant..." He mumbled, admitting defeat.

You gave him a friendly pat on the back. "You're getting a lot nicer, you know that? I think hanging around me is softening you up."

He let out a quiet scoff, turning his gaze back to the sea. "Or maybe I'm just like that with you."

"Huh?"

"Nothing."

— SANJI

Sanji is the king of exaggerated compliments. Every time he looks at you, it's as if he's seeing the most beautiful person in the world. "My darling, the moon is jealous of your beauty tonight." is a pretty common line from him, but you just think it's his usual behavior.

He constantly tries to impress you with his cooking. He'll make your favourite dish and serve it with grace, and when you compliment the food, he blushes as if you're complimenting him. You thank him every time, but in your mind, it's just good manners.

He will find any excuse to help you with something, even if it's small, like picking up something you dropped. And the moment you thank him for it he's like "Anything for you my lovely lady!" You just smile and move on because he does that with pretty much every woman.

Sanji's always the first one to offer you his jacket when it gets cold. Sometimes, when he gets brave, he wraps it around your shoulders and makes sure to linger closer to you for just a little longer.

He has a soft spot for you when you're sad, and he'll stop whatever he's doing to comfort you. He'll hold your hand, stroke your hair and whisper sweet nothings. You just assume it's because he's a gentleman, not because he's crushing on you hard.

Sanji can be pretty possessive, especially when another guy is even slightly flirting with you. You'll catch him glaring, and if anyone so much as dares to brush against your arm, he'll throw a fit. That person might get a foot to the face, but who knows!!

Whenever you compliment his cooking or his fighting skills, he gets way more flustered than with anyone else. His eyes will turn into hearts, and he'll literally swoon.

Sanji often stares at you with wide starry eyes but when you catch him, he'll just say something like "Oh, nothing! Just admiring my beautiful angel." You think he's being his usual self or just lost in thought.

He makes a huge deal out of holding the door for you, pulling your chair at dinner and guiding you with his arm. But you think it's just because he's being polite. He tries to take your hand as he walks you around, but you just think he's offering help, never suspecting that he's being a little more than just polite.

After all his dramatic declarations of love, he finally cracks. One evening, while you're standing by the railing, he walks up to you and throws himself down at your feet. "I cannot live without you! You're my everything, and I need you to understand that!"

———☆

Sanji had been watching you all day. When you first arrived and joined the crew, he had already been swooning, but now, after spending this much time with you, he was completely smitten. He had made your favourite dessert just for you, and now he was patiently waiting for you to notice.

You peacefully sat on the deck, reading a book, when Sanji rushed over, holding a plate of freshly made pastries. "Ah, my darling! I've made these just for you!" He smiled, leaning down with a hand on his chest in a dramatic bow. "Only the finest for my beautiful lady."

You looked up from your book, a little surprised. "Oh, Sanji! Thank you so much! You really didn't have to, but I appreciate it!"

Sanji's heart skipped a bit as you reached for one of the pastries, giving him a sweet smile. "Anything for you, my love." He muttered, but his voice came out softer, almost like a whisper. He was looking at you like you were the only person in the world. He pressed a hand to his heart, praying you couldn't hear how loud it was beating.

You giggled, thinking nothing of it as you took a bite from the pastry. "This is so good! I don't think I've said this enough, but you're really talented."

He blinked, and his face turned pink, clearly flustered by the compliment. "I only make the best for you, [Y/N]." He replied, his voice shaking just slightly. He leaned in a little closer, almost as if hoping you'd get the hint. "You deserve nothing less."

You looked up, gazing at him, smiling warmly. "Thank you, Sanji. I appreciate it..."

He sighed dramatically and placed a hand to his forehead. "Oh, my sweet [Y/N], how I adore you..." His voice trailed off as he stared into the distance.

"You okay?" You tilted your head, genuinely concerned. But once again, completely oblivious to how he was really feeling.

He slumped forward onto the table, groaning in agony. "I don't think I can take it anymore..." He mumbled under his breath, barely audible. "Why can't you see how I feel?!"

★yoyomiko ★miko

[reallywitchycat]

I hate Sir Phillip Crane

So with season 3 of Bridgerton show released on Netflix I do see lots of disclosure about Eloise and her potential endgame. I see people shipping her with Theo, I see people shipping her with Cressida and I see people insisting she will end up with Sir Phillip Crane, because he is just best and he was already in season 1 and season 2. So let me just say, I would HATE if Eloise ends up with Sir Phillip because I hate Sir Phillip with passion.

First, let's start with fact that almost ALL men in Bridgerton books are toxic, misogynist and sometimes straight up abusive. But Sir Phillip Crane is worst of them all. He truly have no redeeming qualities. There are my reasons:

1.) He is horrible husband to Marina.

Yes, I am aware he did not marry her for love, but because his father forced him. BUT that is NOT excuse for his behaviour towards her! Phillip is dismissive of Marina's mental illness. And yes, in Regency period there was very little awareness of how to PROPERLY treat mental illnesses. Still, it frustrates me that he made Marina's mental illness all about himself. HE is one who have to take responsibility for his own children. (How horrible) HE is one who have to live in celibacy because his wife felt too sick to have sex. (I would rather not talk about marital rape that happened here, because it makes me sick). Not one word about how bad that situation was for Marina. Almost as he had no empathy for her.

2.) He is horrible father.

I don't want to go too hard on him here. He did have very abusive childhood. And this is ONE instance where his childhood trauma would work as sort of excuse. BUT! In book he IS biological father of twins. (And don't let anybody told you otherwise. If book Phillip is not meant to be biological father, book would be very clear about that. JQ always tell you such things very clearly). So basically. He was aware that he had no idea how to be good father and yet, with his free will, he decide to have children. And THEN complain about them ALL the time.

3.) He is horrible husband to Eloise.

ONLY reason he wants to have wife is to have someone who will take care of his children while he is playing in his greenhouse. Basically he is looking for babysitter who he can bang. He DIDN'T TELL Eloise about that! He DIDN'T TELL her about fact he has children!!! And once they got married, that is exactly how it works! ALL childcare land on Eloise of course. And Phillip gets almost angry when Eloise wanted to have an serious conversation instead of sex. Like he tells her he did not have sex in 8 years and so she is supposed to fell sorry for him and shut up ?! Worst thing is HE don't change at the end of the book! He gets to play with his plants in greenhouse and she gets … what ? sex ? … Like I don't understand WHAT they have in common.

In conclusion. Book Eloise deserves better. And show Eloise would never ever put up with him! To make show Phillip appealing love interest they would have to completely change his story and personality. At that point they could very easily go with someone completely different.

[isabella-2025]

Professor professor: warnings: shaming and language that's all. Happy reading.

Also let me know if y'all want a part 2 in the comments.

Jimmy USO x oc

Bella gaines has been at the University of California las Angeles for 3 year's working to obtain her bachelors degree. This year is her senior year and she is so ready to get out of there.

Bella was walking down the hall to her locker number 25 to be exact. When she arrives she sees her two best friends Evelyn and Ella. Bella begins grabbing books for he respective classes from her locker. Evelyn squeezes her shoulder gently and says

" Girl, aren't you taking AP history."

"Yes.... Why?" Bella asks

"Um because there is a new teacher and he's fine as hell girl" Ella says excitedly.

" Okay... And what's the big deal.?" Bella says

" Um hello, you have never gotten deflowered ma'am maybe he change that." Evelyn says while laughing

" Guys no, number one he's a teacher and number 2 I don't wanna do it with just anybody, I want it to be with someone who's gentle with me not rough, patient not rude and focused on my pleasure not just theirs." Bella says solemnly.

Evelyn and Ella look at each other laugh and say

" Well, looks like you will be a virgin forever then, we got to go toodles."

Bella just groans in frustration, she loved her friend's to death but they just always made her feel less than because she was 24 and hadn't had sex yet. To her it meant something but to them it didn't mean anything.

She walks into her AP history class which is small and only has 5 student, 3 girls and 2 boys. She finds a seat in the middle of the room away from everyone, that is what she preferred. She pulls out her notebook and pencils and as soon as she is done she hears a deep honeyd voice say

"Hey, I am so sorry I am late I had trouble finding the class, my name is Mr fatu and I will be your teacher for AP history. Let's get to know each other your name, year and something you are passionate about."

Bella looks up at him and OMG he looked so good. He wore a black suit from head to toe, his hair was slicked back into a neat bun and he had glasses that framed his face perfectly. Everyone had introduced themselves except you.

He notices your head has been down and you haven't said a word to anyone. Huh she must be shy, I want her to feel comfortable here, maybe I can get her out of her shell he thinks. He walks closer to your desk and says.

" Hey, would you like to ntroduce yourself now or if you feel more comfortable you could write it down and hand it to me at the end of the class."

She replies" sir , may ni write it and give it you after class?

He just nods in response.

One of the girls in the class says " bella isn't very sociable at all that is probably why she always chokes if you know what I am trying to say." She laughs as she sees bellas face turn red.

" So, you think it's funny to make inappropriate jokes in my class towards a very good student. This may fly with other people but it will not fly with me. Now you can apologize or get the hell out."

Bella looks at him like he hung the moon and stars because nobody ever in her life not even Evelyn or Ella have defended her like that. Bella notices how tight his grips on the desk is and how his nostrils are flaring. Whoa why does my stomach feel funny she thought.

The girls were about to comment but the bell rang. Bella was the last one to leave before she could she heard him sweetly ask.

" Can you stay back for a moment please."

She nods and walks in from his desk and waots to see what he is going to say.

" I am so sorry that happened to you , that was uncalled for and it will not happen again."

Bella looks at him sadly smiles and says

" Thank you sir, I am used to it though it's not a big deal really."

He steps out from behind the desk and says

"No, that's not okay a girl as beautiful as you should not have to deal with shit and if you're here I will not let it happen ever, do you understand me?"

Bella looks down blushes and says

" Yes sir I understand, thank you Mr fatu."

" You're welcome, oh and Bella when nobody else is around you can just call me jimmy." He says smiling politely.

" Okay I will do that... Jimmy. " She says

She smiles and thinks this year might not be so bad after all.

Back in the classroom jimmy smiles and thinks, wow I am so happy I took this job, now I get to see her beautiful face everyday.

The end

Should I make a part 2 to this, let me know in the comments.

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[buggienuggie]

With Humans Extinct The New Evolved Species Are Paleontologists

The extinction of humanity, the bipedal primates that swore to conquer the cosmos, the Adapters, was a great lost for the universe. Their talents to bond with others outside of their species, and their unrelenting habits to seek friendship is what got most of the species of the Universe to grow fond, or the equivalent of such relationship, of the primitive species.

They had grown to rely on their governments and laws too much, and the rule of extracting humans from space travel had begun a mass panic for those unwilling to go back to Terra, the planet they named "Earf". Their governments called upon the help of other species outside of Earf, putting a bounty on any Earfling that seeked to continue their travels in space. And when the other species refused, and rather helped the space otters (a nicknamed earned from a human fighting in Kortnak, a water planet with unrelenting fierce creatures that killed anything they considered a parasite... The human walked away with a Kortnakian as dinner under its arm) hide deep into the stars.

The Earf's government leaders began attacking any creature they considered a foe. And that meant anybody that got in the way of the retrieval of their fellow humans. As time passed, the original plan was long forgotten and soon it was just war that the humans sought. Blood and death were what they were after. They were strong in the beginning, sure, but after months, and years prior of accumulating enemies, it had become apparent that their numbers dwindled. And before Portunians, the Peacemakers of the Universe, could reach Earf it had been too late.

Saddened, angry, and passive creatures left the Milky Way. A restriction notice in their systems meant it was out of anyone's reach of contact (whether physical or through communication). No one was allowed to visit the dying galaxy, humanity's home.

And no one did. It had been 7 billion years since the extinction, a new species crawled the ground of what was once called Earf. Doe-eyed creatures with mass intelligence, their features very similar to those of humans. Creatures that learned to communicate telepathically, evolving out of the need for the hyoid bone. Their personalities? Not so much.

They didn't laugh, cry, or speak, and though they did feel emotions they did not find it necessary to express it. They became the creatures thriving off of humanity's issues, the history of what once was became their rules for what NOT to do. Though they did not understand how such primitive minds got in contact with other creatures in space, or how they achieved space travel, they themselves, the new walkers of Terra, grew frustrated with their lack of progress in that aspect.

So much so that they built machines to create visual movements humans made out of the fossils they found in graves, or what was left of them.

They were surprised when their systems began making a loud rakakakakak sound. They froze in surprise, their pupils narrowing in on the machine. Nothing. It was not smoking, nor shaking. Nothing.

Rakakaka

Again! The grey-skinned fellow watched the hologram of the human throw its head back, hand on its chest, and its shoulders rapidly moving up and down...

The human was making this sound...? The human was making this sound...

This is like nothing they've ever witnessed. The new species had thought of the many possibilities of how humans communicated, especially with other creatures in space, but not once had they thought orally. Of course!

However, the sound it was making did not sound pleasant, a sort of replica of what their train system racking up in the morning with rocks underneath its wheels sounded like, and the doe-eyed creature began to wonder if it was the reason why humans no longer lived.

[thencitytales]

Non-stop Teasing - CYJ

🌷Pairing: Choi Yeonjun of TXT x fem!reader (3rd person used)

🌷 kinda enemies to lovers

🌷wc: 4.1k

🌷 Fluff? sort of angsty tho

🌷 warning: drinking, cussing, frat party, Yeonjun being kind of down bad

🌷There are a few other idols mentioned, some of them in a relationship with each other, I do not think these people are together nor do I ship them, I just felt like the story could have used these dort of relationships (ChaewonxWooyoung, KarinaxJeno)

🌷 Hey!! I am back because i felt like it. This fic is a fleeting idea i had a long time ago and was finally able to finish. In the beginning it was not meant for Yeonjun but it had mostly OC'S so if you see random names I'm sorry, I have yet to proofread it. Feel free to give me notes and feedback, as I appreciate it a lot!! 'Til next time <3

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Yeonjun. Stupid, fucking Yeonjun.

Idiot, average-looking yet so stupidly attractive Yeonjun.

“If you really hate him you should stop staring at him, you know?” a blonde girl talked to her best friend, who shushed her in response.

“Shut up Chaewon, I’m not staring” Y/N retorted against her best friend. 

Except she was, and she knew it.

Another person in the library was also very aware of Y/N and what she was doing, because he could feel her eyes pierce through his head. 

And he loved it.

“Ask anybody here, they’ll say you’re staring,” Chaewon said in an amused tone, making Y/N’s eye twitch in frustration.

“Well, then it’s hate-staring, glaring if you will,” Y/N looked away from the boy and glared at her best friend, turning her head ever so slowly, as to recreate the scene in a horror movie.

“Just like I’m glaring at you right now.” Chaewon let out a laugh at her friend’s antics and shrugged it off.

“Sure thing, love. Keep telling yourself that.”Chaewon said. Y/N could only scoff before going back to look at her books.

Look was indeed the best word to describe what she was doing, the words on the page being read for the tenth time in as many minutes without understanding nor absorbing any of it. Biology sucked, and so did Y/N’s brain at that moment. So much so that after a couple of seconds she got distracted again.

“What is it with the stupid beanie anyway? Like what’s the deal with that? DO YOU THINK HE HAS A BALD SPOT?” Y/N whisper-screamed, making Chaewon almost spit out the water she was trying to drink after finally reaching the end of her chapter.

Suddenly the girls heard a louder voice coming from behind them.

“It’s actually for style-related purposes, no bald spot, though if you’re still in doubt you could always ask him. Also, Y/N, you were one hundred percent staring at Yeonjun, just FYI.” Wooyoung said whilst chuckling at the little jump the girls made upon hearing him. Y/N turned around, red in the face, a mixture of embarrassment for being caught and pure wrath, caused by Wooyoung’s presence.

“How long have you been here?” She said bitterly. The boy could sense she wanted to add something, the words dying in her throat a bit too fast. He assumed a “dickhead”, or “asshole” was missing, but he let it go, not teasing her any further. 

“The whole time, love,” he said mocking what Chaewon had said to her friend just a few minutes prior. Then turned away and returned to his spot at the same table with Yeonjun, Soobin and Changbin.

Y/N looked warily at her surroundings to make sure no one else was around to eavesdrop on them.

“How in actual hell are you able to like that guy?” Her shocked expression clearly visible on her features.

Chaewon shrugged.

“He just likes to tease you, he’s actually very nice” She answered, her cheeks turning slightly pink before continuing. 

“I mean it’s not like they’re the fuckboys group.” When Chaewon said that, Y/N was still looking at them and immediately turned around. 

“No, they’re worse, at least the fuckboys are self-aware of how awful they are” she sighed.

“Oh my God you’re so dramatic,” Chaewon said rolling her eyes before going back to typing at her computer. 

Y/N shut up and went back to try and drill a hole through Yeonjun’s head with her gaze, sadly, without any success.

As if on cue, the boy turned around, looked at her, smirked, and turned back to speak with Changbin, making her avert her gaze and awkwardly look around to find God knows what.

She couldn’t take it anymore, her heart pounding in her chest was beginning to feel like it was too much, she could literally hear it and the sensation made her shudder. She got up and headed to the bathroom searching for some quick fix to the sudden heat of her body.

As soon as she got there Y/N quickly splashed her face with some cold water to try and stop it from getting all red, failing miserably. She looked defeatedly at her reflection.

“This is a PSA for that tiny voice living at the back of my head, I am kindly asking you to shut up” She lightly hit her head with her hand in the process so that the point would go across. 

“You understand me??” The girl sighed and took a step back from the sink to exit the bathroom, but as soon as she turned around a familiar face was standing leaning on the door frame.

“Try hitting it harder next time, that should work better.” He chuckled lightly before taking a step towards her.

“This is the girls’ bathroom, Yeonjun�� Y/N backed up and glared at him for what was probably the thousandth time that day.

“Sorry, I was headed to the guys’ bathroom but something here caught my attention” he smirked once again. 

Y/N was on the verge of breaking. That smirk. He had to know the effect it had on her. Or was it just a stupid habit of his? 

It didn’t really matter. Either way, she wanted to kiss him so badly right now. And subsequently, run away, completely change identities, go to Peru, and start a potato plantation or something, to hopefully never be found again. She would never EVER admit to wanting to kiss that boy.

Frustrated even more than before, she ran back to the table where Chaewon was waiting for her, shoving Yeonjun in the process, and making him audibly laugh, clearly enjoying how easily he could fluster her.

“I gotta go, or I’m going to be late for the party,” Chaewon said the moment she saw her best friend enter her view.

“Again” Y/N added to Chaewon’s statement, knowing how long the blonde usually takes to get ready. The other girl got up and quickly added:

“Remember, I’ll be at your dorm around 10 pm, we’ll see what to do from there. Remind Ryujin too when you get home, please.” Chaewon said while collecting all of her stuff and messily throwing it in her bag.

“Sure thing, I’ll finish this chapter and go home too in a half-hour or so. Don’t worry about Ryujin, knowing her, she’ll be all dressed up already. You know who you should be worried about, though.” Y/N answered, looking up from her books.

“I already texted Karina, I told her I’d be at hers around 9:30 so she’ll hopefully be ready when we actually get there.” The girl chuckled at her best friend’s trickery and waved her goodbye, mumbling a “perfect” in the meanwhile.

On her way out Chaewon was stopped in her tracks by a slightly taller figure.

“Hey there,” he sweetly addressed the girl.

“Hi Wooyoung, I’d love to stop and chat with you but I really need to go.”

“See you at the party, then” Chaewon looked at him surprised.

“You should really stop eavesdropping other people’s conversations. Besides, you don’t even know which party we were talking about, there’s like 5 every Friday night without counting the ones outside of campus” 

He gave her a playful smile and said “Don’t worry, I’ll figure it out.” The girl laughed and answered “Good luck, darling” before going her way.

After that Wooyoung quickly got back to the guys’ table where all of his friends were sitting, trying to finish some sort of group project.

“Okay, talking about important things, what do you guys know about parties tonight?” Wooyoung said, sitting down.

“You mean here in the campus? or in general? Also like, frat houses or bars?” Soobin started throwing questions at him to try and narrow down the search.

“I don't know, man, Chaewon was talking to the Menace and they said they were going to a party tonight.” Wooyoung just answered him calmly.

As soon as he heard the words “Menace” and “party” together in a sentence Yeonjun’s interest was piqued. He looked at Wooyoung, completely ignoring the semi-blank document opened in front of him.

“Well I don’t think they’d go off campus, the Menace is too lazy for that, she’d want to be as close to the dorm as possible.” Soobin started the brainstorming session.

“That still leaves like at least five or six parties” Changbin pointed out, then turned to Wooyoung and asked:

“Is it just the two of them?” to which Wooyoung quickly added Ryujin and Karina to the mix.

As soon as Karina’s name came up Changbin and Soobin looked at each other and said: “Keystone Lodge.”

“Is there something I don’t know?” Wooyoung asked given how the boys answered the place of the party seemed obvious but he had no idea.

“Karina’s boyfriend, Jeno. He’s in the frat.” Soobin pointed out.

“Okay but aren’t parties at KL like, invitation-only or something like that?” Changbin quickly raised the question.

Yeonjun, who had just started fantasizing about what could’ve happened at the party and had no intentions of having his dreams ruined just like that, said: “don’t worry guys, be prepared, I’ll text you later.” and quickly got up and gathered his things before exiting the library.

“Does he have to do it every time?” Soobin asked.

“He got it from Mark, says it gives him the surprise effect later on and the mysterious effect right away.” Changbin answered rolling his eyes, to which the other two guys only answered almost in awe with an “Ooh.” probably thinking it was the best idea a man could have.

“Okay, how did you get us in Yeonjun?” Wooyoung asked, almost alarmed at how quickly and seemingly easily their friend acquired the invitations.

“I know Haechan, and he owed me. He still does.” the older boy simply stated, raising Wooyoung's alarm instead of calming him down.

“Now let’s get this party started” Yeonjun exclaimed walking up the stairs to Keystone’s Lodge with a smirk on his face.

“You’re going to try and make her life hell, aren’t you?” Changbin said clearly amused at how his friend was planning on being even more annoying to Y/N than he usually was.

“Just wait and see Changbin, just wait and see.” the smirk on Yeonjun’s face growing with every step to the door he knocked on, where they found a guy standing alone, waiting for proof of invitations.

Inside the Frat house, the music was blasting. The air felt damp and everything smelled like cheap alcohol, adding to the mix the group of smoking boys at the far end of the room anyone could imagine that the atmosphere was not very romantic. Which is exactly what they expected.

Changbin went straight for the bar, getting everybody something to drink as the other guys scanned the room for their targets. 

Wooyoung quickly saw Chaewon sitting on the couch with her friends. They were talking to a few frat guys but they seemed nonthreatening enough to his ego. The Menace was sitting dangerously close to one of them, almost in his lap. Wooyoung could not recognize the guy though, no matter how much he squinted.

He nudged his friends and with a nod pointed the scene out, hoping they would get curious and approach them, so he could flirt with Chaewon once again. 

As soon as he realized what was going on, Soobin turned to look at Yeonjun’s reaction, gesturing to Changbin to hurry over, so he could witness it too because despite what those two liked to admit, they had this tension between them that was almost romantic. They were definitely, on some level, attracted to each other but they would never admit it. That’s why Changbin Soobin and Wooyoung were now staring at Yeonjun, hoping to catch a glimpse of whatever they had theorized.

Yeonjun’s brows furrowed. The night just started and everything had to be so simple already, not even a bit of a challenge. He sighed, took a drink from Changbin’s hands, and turned to Wooyoung. 

“Let’s go say hi to your princess, shall we?” Yeonjun told his friend, who was very happy about the poor lighting, meaning the other boys were not made aware of his rosy cheeks prompted by Yeonjun's comment.

As they approached, Chaewon saw them and a big smile tugged on her lips. She raised a hand to say hi and the boys did the same.

“Well Well Well, I’m surprised to see little Sherlock actually did find us.” She chuckled looking at Wooyoung.

“I told you I could do it. I’m very resourceful” he winked and the girl lightly laughed. 

Everybody then fell back into conversation, except Y/N and her mystery guy, who were so distracted by each other that they didn’t even say hi to the newcomers. 

Yeonjun cleared his voice. 

“I know you don’t like us Y/N but not saying hi is simply rude, even for you.” He smirked, knowing very well what it did to her.

The girl turned around, her surroundings didn’t make it easy to hear but she was sure she heard a voice talking to her. 

From her sitting position she looked at the new figures that had joined the conversation. And then she saw his face. She simply rolled her eyes.

“Who even invited you here? Seriously, please tell me so I can avoid the lunatic all night long, people just become crazier and crazier by the day”

“Actually,” Yeonjun chuckled.

The guy whom Y/N was talking to gently removed his hands from her hips, feeling a bit embarrassed. 

“I think that might have been me,” He said. 

Y/N looked at Haechan with a void expression.

“You’re his friend?” She asked, not believing it for a moment.

Haechan was slightly taken aback by the question, thinking the answer to be obvious, so he simply answered:

“Yeah?” at which Y/N glared at both the boys.

“That’s a shame, I really liked you.” And with that, she got up and went to the bar to pour herself yet another drink. The alcohol was probably what made her act so suddenly with that silly explanation but even sober her had no intention of being affiliated in any way with Yeonjun.

Seeing how Y/N was behaving, the boy thought that his mission was going to be such a delight with how simple she was making it.

Yeonjun followed her, leaving behind their friends absorbed in whatever conversation, and a very confused Haechan sitting on the couch.

As Y/N approached the bar, she bumped into a few people obstructing passages left and right and leaving her even more annoyed than she already was.

She took one of the red cups and poured herself some beer. 

Not the ideal drink but it was the first thing her hands were able to grasp. 

As she was about to take a sip, a hand snatched her drink.

“Thanks, I was very thirsty,” Yeonjun told her, earning a glare once again that day.

“How do you manage to be so annoying Yeonjun?” Y/N said while pouring another cup, this time she grabbed some gin, sensing she would need something stronger than a beer.

“I give it my best, just for you” he grinned.

Y/N couldn’t help but groan as she looked for the soda to mix her drink.

“What did I ever do to you? Have I offended you in any way? Are you holding a grudge from your past life?? Why do you like to annoy me so much??” She sighed in defeat.

“Woah,” Yeonjun said taken aback by the sudden seriousness of the question.

“Well, for starters I could ask you the same thing…” He answered calmly.

As she started to protest he shushed her.

“Buut, I am not going to lie, I do find you very cute when you’re frustrated” He chuckled.

“Are you hitting on me?” She asked, mouth agape.

“Do you want me to be hitting on you?” There it was again. The stupidest grin on the face of the earth. If there was a way to wipe it off instantly, Y/N would’ve gladly taken that chance. Thinking about it, there was a way, and to be honest she had reluctantly considered that way many times before, but always ended up avoiding it.

A kiss was not the solution, everything it could’ve done was only create more problems.

She was snapped back to reality by Yeonjun waving his hands in front of her eyes. She had been staring at the grin for god knows how long. A faint red was starting to tint her cheeks.

“You want to kiss me so badly,” Yeonjun told her, the grin never leaving his face.

She tried to play it as cool as possible, hoping the poor lighting of the room helped her conceive the blushing situation.

“Projecting much?” She smiled turning on her heels, determined to get out of the house for some fresh air.

As she walked away Yeonjun screamed over the music.

“I never said I wouldn’t like it” Y/N briefly stopped in her tracks, surprised by the sudden confession. Thinking it was just another way of getting under her skin she slowly reached the door and opened it, stepping out onto the backyard.

“You just love messing with her, don’t you?” Chaewon said as she approached Yeonjun, Wooyoung by her side, holding her waist.

“I have a tendency not to lie, actually. Everything I said is true. She’s just… compelling” he tried to find the best word to describe her.

“Compelling? You mean messing with her like that is compelling?” Chaewon said, a bit offended that Yeonjun enjoyed toying with her friend’s emotions like that.

“Tell me Chaewon, when have I ever done anything truly bad to her? All I do is tease, in her opinion, when in reality I was always simply…” Yeonjun said, meanwhile Chaewon tried to start a list of all the times he’s gotten you frustrated and quickly realized most times it was just his very annoying, twisted way of ... 

“Flirting,” Chaewon said, shocked. She looked at him straight in the eyes, her expression painted with shock.

“Oh my God, you just flirt with her” Chaewon continued. She suddenly realized that every time Yeonjun ever talked to Y/N he was flirting, and that enraged her friend for some reason. He never actually DID anything bad to her. He never insulted her, let alone take action to actively ruin her day. The only times he did something of the sort she was always with a guy, like 10 minutes ago with Haechan. Yeonjun was always just… flirting with Y/N.

“I am very confused.” Wooyoung said looking at his two friends.

“You never admitted it to us and it takes you like three seconds to tell it to her best friend? I kinda hate you and I am not sure I would like to be friends with you anymore.” Wooyoung continued while watching Yeonjun's every move and acting offended.

“It’s not like you guys ever really asked, I thought it was obvious if I have to be honest. She’s pretty, she’s smart, she can be a pain in the ass but she’s one of the nicest and kindest people I ever met. Not with me, which I can not really comprehend, but if teasing her incessantly is the only way I can get her to interact with me I don’t think I will ever stop.” Yeonjun said earnestly to his friend. A small smile appeared on his features, almost sheepishly.

A voice behind him startled him right after.

“What did he just say??” it was Changbin, who basically screamed in his ear after he heard just half of the confession.

“I think he likes the Menace!!” Soobin screamed at Changbin (and in Yeonjun’s other ear) in hopes of being understood over the loud music.

Meanwhile, Y/N was outside, freezing because she forgot to bring a jacket. 

Why did he have to always be so annoying, why did he always have something to say that would just make her heart beat at a worrying speed? Why did she have to like him so fucking much?

As her mind birthed the last few words she stopped pacing back and forth on the grass.

Of course, she liked him. It seemed as if every stupid decision she could make she would take and this was not even a conscious one. 

It would explain why her fight or flight response would kick in every time he would even just look in her direction, and her choice was fight. 

Thinking about kissing him all those times was not just a stupid silly thought. 

Y/N was hopeless.

"So?" The question was raised suddenly by a voice she recognised immediately.

He was standing right there, in front of her, handing her her jacket.

She happily took it, silently thanking him with a smile before muttering.

"So what?" her eyes looking at him defeated. She liked him and he was just playing. He was just teasing, and look where all that teasing led her. A terrible position she never wanted to be in.

"Am I getting that kiss you so badly want to give me?" Here he goes again. Non-stop teasing.

This time Y/N did not find it in her to fight, not him nor the feelings she finally realized she had.

"You should be more careful with your words Yeonjun, one might think you actually want it, crave it even" she said calmly before chuckling lightly. She was now sitting down on the bench and her gaze was everywhere but the boy's figure.

"As I said when you were storming off, I do think I'd enjoy it" he slowly sat down beside her, surprised by her tone. This felt more like an actual conversation now. It didn't seem like she had any intention of fleeing this time around. Just them two, talking like normal people. It was new and he liked it. He liked it more than words could explain.

"Stop teasing me please, I honestly don't think I can take it anymore. I won't be bothering you again if you promise me you will leave me alone without uttering any other word that you don't mean" If someone were to pass by and listen very closely, the sound of Yeonjun's heart could be heard as it was cracking and falling apart like glass under extreme heat.

She didn't want to see him anymore, but what was worse is that she didn't think his words were honest. She thought he didn't mean it, ever.

He meant it from the first smile he flashed her, from the first hello he said. The first time he saw her he was struck by lightning and did not feel like himself anymore. All he could do was think about her, all he wanted to do was to speak with her. He did not care if it meant he had to endure rolling eyes and frustrated groans, at the very least he was interacting with you.

"So?" this time she asked the question. Her eyes showed how hurt she was and he could barely look at them.

As he turned to face her, Y/N noticed tears welling up in his eyes. She didn't understand.

"You really think I don't mean it? Y/N you consume my thoughts in the best and worst way ever. I think about you all the time. All I ever want to do is speak with you and I don't care if it means you'll hate me, I won't stop doing it because I am selfish like that. I don't want to feel miserable, and the only way I have to do that is if I speak to you. You can tell me you despise me a thousand times but I won't care as long as you're in front of me, addressing me, acknowledging my presence." As Yeonjun spoke Y/N could not believe his words. 

If it was just minutes ago she would've joked about how "you're so obsessed with me, jeez" but at that moment the expression on Yeonjun's face was making her want to cry. It seemed like he meant it.

He did mean it.

"You like me?" she asked, furrowing her brows in confusion.

"I think like is a bit of an understatement at this point..." he chuckled looking into the distance, the palms of his hands rubbing against each other awkwardly.

Y/N moved closer to him. He did not register how close she got until she turned his head towards her with her hand.

They stared at each other, they are not sure for how long. It could have been mere seconds or hours on end. Then she moved closer and finally kissed him. 

She tilted her head as he deepened the kiss. 

Everything felt good. They were finally happy.

[angelique-of-the-volturi-guard]

You guys I had an idea and yes I’m making the fic for it (Which will probably be posted when I finish it because I’m in two long fics deep right now) but here goes:

Loid losing his memory of being a spy and believing that he’s only Loid Forger. He wakes up in the hospital with a head injury and a bullet to his thigh after a stray bullet from a shooting in the workplace caused a light to fall on his head. He has no memory of being a spy, and thinks he’s just a regular husband and father. Anya is the only one who notices something is up, and she tries to devise a plan to get Papa the help he needs. Her time comes when Franky comes to visit and she asks him to play with her in her room, shutting the door before she asks him for his help with something really important, and makes him promise not to tell Mama and Papa. Franky can tell she’s being serious and reluctantly agrees. She asks him if he knows the “red haired boss lady” that helped them get Bond, and when he says yes, she says she has to meet and talk with her, but won’t tell him why, only that she thinks the lady can help her with something really important. She practically begs him to take her and tell Mama and Papa they were going someplace else, and he eventually agrees as long as she tells him what’s wrong later.

Franky gets her a meeting with Sylvia Sherwood who is initially super pissed at Franky for bringing her but when Anya tells her that her Papa’s in trouble and she’s the only one who can help, that gets her attention, and she and Anya sit down. Anya tells her about the hospital shooting (that she was aware of), but tells her that her Papa isn’t himself anymore. Sylvia asks what she means, and Anya makes her promise to wait until she’s all done talking before she says anything. Sylvia agrees, curious. Anya makes the difficult decision to reveal her powers to Sylvia, even proving it to her by reading her thoughts, and tells her that she knows Papa’s a spy and has been helping him with his mission to get close to Donovan Desmond without him knowing. Sylvia is stunned, for once.

She asks how long Anya knew about her father being a spy and she says ever since she got home from the orphanage, and that she never told anybody because she knew what it was like to have secret powers you can’t share. She then tells her that Her papa doesn’t remember being a spy and she knows that’s dangerous for him, and asks for her help to keep him safe, offering to help keep the mission going on her own and using her powers to help Franky and pass along anything useful for WISE. Sylvia is impressed by her initiative but tells her that this is a dangerous mission and she needs to understand what she’s getting herself into. Anya then proceeds to tell her about times she’s helped Loid without him knowing, and tells her that she knows it’s dangerous, but she wants to help make her Papa’s dream come true of making a world where kids don’t cry. And Sylvia agrees to her plan for now but asks why she told her as opposed to anyone else. She says it’s because she knew Papa trusted her, so that meant it was safe for her to. Anya asks one other thing, and it’s that if she helps them, will they take her on as a spy and make Papa her handler like she’s his so they can be together forever and she promises to see what she can do, and realizes that her powers would be an excellent asset.

Anya continues trying to earn Stella and to get Damian to ask her over. Sylvia informs Franky of the developments and he comes over every day to see how Loid is doing and Anya sneaks him information. Loid is frustrated over his lack of autonomy, because it means Yor has to pick up the slack, but her caring for him really starts making him fall in love with her, and she him. They start to become more couple like, and Sylvia is very worried about the developments, but can’t interfere until Loid’s memory is back. When his thigh is healed, he takes Yor on a date and they dance in the park. Franky is out with Anya and they see them together, kissing. Anya runs to them, and Loid dances with her too, with her standing on his shoes, before he dances with the three of them together (He calls them his girls and that little detail WRECKED me), before there’s an explosion near the park, and it trigger’s Twilight’s memory of meeting Yor, and it all comes flooding back. He tells Yor to get Anya out of there and says he’s going to see if there are any survivors he can take to the hospital. Yor takes Anya home, and she is relieved that her Papa is finally back. She tells Franky the next day to give Sylvia something and hands him a piece of paper. He does, and she opens it to a drawing from Anya of her family with a sloppily written thank you underneath. Sylvia frames it, and Anya is put under WISE’s protection while continuing to help Franky, and Loid and Yor really do become a couple.

I just have a lot of feelings about this okay? 😭

[woodland-sys]

I'm still new to discovering I have a system (just got over that denial bridge a few weeks ago, and have been struggling mentally since (and before) then), and the system discourse online has been very... distressing? I want to lean into safe communities meant for learning about or exploring (my own) CDD, and find some sort of comraderie.

I don't understand what's happening really - I don't exactly understand endogenic systems, but I also don't understand why people would be anti-endogenic. It just seems... hateful. And purposeless.

I've seen tons of anti-endo posts (before I learned what endo meant) that made me terrified to lean too heavily into traumagen spaces (if they could say this about awful stuff about one group of people, what could they say about me? *it is very much a learned response from trauma, but it is what it is I guess*

I guess the point is to ask if you were ever anti-endo, and what has it been like since you started making pro-endo posts? I know it's silly, but I'm trying to figure all of this out and I'm terrified of receiving hate for refusing to hate someone because of how they identify

Thanks (and sorry for the book lol)

- Host

First I want to say it's not silly at all!! Being a newly discovered system is overwhelming and it's normal to want to have a community of those who understand you. It's also normal to want to avoid being harassed and fakeclaimed. I'm happy you reached out! This reply is going to be kinda long (sorry I tried to keep it short) but I did my best to address all your questions. I hope this helps! And I wish you the best on your new journey of self discovery!!

Second I would strongly recommend that you stay away from syscourse if you can. It's really draining and overwhelming even for us and we have a pretty good handle on our system. As a newly discovered system it's going to be even worse.

Unfortunately I don't have any specific recommendations for cdd focused spaces which accept endos (if anybody knows one put it in the replies!) but I will say that pro endo servers, even if they aren't focused on cdds can still be amazing for finding comradery. There will be other cdd systems there and you might find some endos who you relate to as well. Also if you want my dms are open! I'm just one person (well, not exactly) but I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have and suggest ways to help you figure out your system more!

As for why people are anti endo I think it mainly comes down to two things. First is that they think endos are saying they experience the same thing as cdd systems except without the trauma. Endos do not generally claim this*. Second is that people who've spent significant amounts of their lives under attack sometimes they start to see threats where there aren't any.

These systems have debilitating mental illnesses that are criminally misunderstood and romanticized. For them being a system is intrinsically linked with being deeply traumatized, they are not separate. So when they see a community of people claim to have systems but not trauma, they get upset. They feel like that's not possible, because it isn't possible to be a system like *theirs* without trauma. They get frustrated because they think people just want the "quirky" parts of their disorder without the painful ones. That's why they always say endos are faking did, because they can't imagine a system that doesn't have a cdd. They think endos are just people who want to feel special so they claim to have system. Once endos started becoming a part of the community, anti endos felt invaded because now there's a bunch of systems who don't have cdds in the space they thought was for them (keep in mind cdd focused spaces still exist, its just that the plural community as a whole isn't 100% focused on us anymore).

Once they feel invaded, they feel like they need to defend their community and they do that by harassing and fakeclaiming endos. Then they act like psychology is on their side (it isn't) and after that it's just increasing amounts of digging their heels in.

I think it mostly comes down to the misconception that endos claim to have did without the disorder part, and then in trying to defend themselves they turn off critical thinking and just do whatever they can to get rid of the perceived threat.

*There is a world of difference between the experiences of most endos and most cdd systems but it's not black and white. At this point the term "endo" just means anybody who is not completely traumagenic which includes mixed origin systems. Also, some endogenic systems develop cdds after being exposed to trauma, the only difference is that they were plural beforehand so they're still endogenic. There's others too. The main point is that the plural experience is incredibly personal and doesn't fit well into boxes, categorization is useful and it's important that people understand that in general there are real and big differences between endogenic plurality and cdds but there's no hard lines here.

[kiwi-tmntfan]

Hi have some RPWaSoBT leader-y and like duos stuff that I wrote once but never shared

Don & Raph: In this situation, Don would be in charge. Raph would not listen to him though just to purposely annoy him, not thinking about how that could easily cause them to fail whatever they're doing. So yeah Don would easily get frustrated with Raph, and it would probably end with Don just wanting to tell Nardo they messed up, so that he wouldn't have to deal with Raph any longer. ~~~~~ Nardo & Mikey: Mikey would listen to Nardo, but he wouldn't want to ask him to clarify something if he didn't get what he meant. Because when they go on missions and whatnot, Nardo's always like "there's no way we can fail" or "why didn't this work it had to work" and stuff, and so yeah Mikey's always kind of scared that he'll get yelled at if he asks Nardo something while they're on a mission, because he thinks Nardo'll act like he's questioning him or something. ~~~~~ Basically this is the worst way to split the teams for stuff like this, and unfortunately they (mostly Nardo, since he's pretty much the only one who deals with splitting them up) learned that the hard way.

Mikey & Don: Don would be in charge in this situation too (Mikey is the most responsible of the four, but he is no leader). Don would give clearer instructions than Nardo, but he would somewhat underestimate everything that Mikey is capable of, leaving a lot of the work to himself. He eventually realizes though what kind of stuff Mikey would do, and they become the most chaotic evil duo yeah ~~~~~ Nardo & Raph: Raph would relunctantly listen to what Nardo tells him to do, and Nardo finds him to be a pretty good amount of help. He understands that most of the time Raph would rather go and do his own thing, so sometimes he would send him off on his own to do something himself, though Nardo doesn't always feel like he can trust Raph to succeed with that.

Mikey & Raph: This is the only time Mikey feels like he could lead, and it definitely helps that he's the one Raph actually listens to the most. He's pretty good at figuring out what they need to do, the only problem is he's not very good at explaining what they need to do. Raph would do what he's told though, if he ever gets any proper instruction. ~~~~~ Nardo & Don: Don doesn't like listening to Nardo much, but he knows that it would be worse if Nardo were trying to follow Don's instruction (not because Don is bad at explaining, because he isn't, but because Nardo just wouldn't be able to process and follow through with what Don is telling him to do), so he lets Nardo's role as leader be. He will speak up though if he believes there will be a flaw in Nardo's plan, and often has one or two of his own ideas that he goes with, whether or not he had Nardo's permission to go ahead with that.

Without Nardo: (if he got injured, or just wasn't with the other three for whatever reason) Don would be the temporary leader. This is because Mikey would be too pressured feeling like he has to lead exactly how Nardo leads them, and Raph has never led anybody before and he honestly knows he could never come up with plans the way the rest of them do. They would all know it feels way off though. Don's brain works differently than Nardo's, especially when it comes to this type of stuff. But of the three, they agree he would be the best to lead, and he does get the job done.

[becomingpart2]

okay @thekimspoblog I wasn't gonna respond to this because we're not really going to get anywhere, we have different views about the characters and shows, but I figure I want to say a few more things before being done with this convo for good. I'm gonna do it here because I don't want to keep clogging OP's notifications with a discussion they didn't ask for.

I mean the fact that Vacuum Repair Guy wasn't involved in Kim's disappearance was a bit disappointing; that's at least partially what I'm getting at. That the two of them got embroiled in something so dangerous and yet when she up and left her witness-protection act was so shoddy. We seem to at least be in agreement that the ending was kind of rushed and weird, and that's leading to a lot of confusion about what the show was even trying to say.

Yes, I agree that the ending was not all that good. I'm not sure if rushed is the word I'd pick, maybe for kim's development? But that's not necessarily about the ending, more like the last two seasons. But I don't have a lot of doubt about what the show wanted to say.

I get the frustration about the vacuum cleaner guy not being involved in her disappearance but again I think that could be chalked up to doylist reasons -- I think the writers simply didn't want to use that plotline again. It'd be too repetitive and feel lazy. I mentioned him because, imo, if Jimmy wanted to save from Gus at any point after she left, he had that option but he never even tries.

I understand that her just going away and living peacefully in Florida might seem like a loose end but also, again, I don't believe that she posed such a threat to Gus. He had a lot more power over her than she had over him and he knew she couldn't count on the police or the law without airing out her own involvement. It would be her alone against his men and his empire. Plus she didn't work for him, they weren't close.

Also, it's not exactly like she could just show up at his door at any moment and try to kill him again, he saw how terrified and traumatized she was the first time around and she didn't even have to kill anybody. Kim's not Walt, she's more like a Jesse or even s1 walt -- they could kill out of desperation but not as a calculated move. She was not there yet. Maybe she could become more vicious with killing eventually, maybe that would be another miscalculation on Gus' part, but at that point when he knew her, she wasn't that person. The only person she'd do it for is Jimmy and she left him to supposedly fend for himself so.

Anyway, I acknowledge that seems like a loose end, I even agree to some extent that should've been better explained in the text, especially when you compare it to how Gus treated everyone else that knew about him.

I guess I'd need an example of one other time Jimmy's hurt feelings took precedent over letting Kim do whatever she wanted. Because I'd need both hands to count the times she did something which wounded his pride, and even if he complained he quickly chose to stuff it down and smile. That's not healthy either, but it shows how much of an exception for her he makes with his pettiness.

I didn't mean that he took his feelings out on her, or wanted "revenge" over her hurting his feelings. I meant that he could be so caught up on his own feelings and personal dramas that he overlooked her interests and how his shenanigans and personal vendettas against Howard, Chuck, HHM or whoever else, could negatively impact her or her career. Or just interfere with her plans in general, like in S5 when he goes against what she wants and sabotages her deal with her clients.

I get what you're saying, that Jimmy also avoids facing his problems. And you need to understand that even if I'm trying to paint Jimmy as a white knight, that's not a good thing. I just think that if we're talking about things Saul tells himself to be able to sleep at night, "Everyone already thinks the worst of me so why not prove them right" is only half the equation and "Everyone else hates me but they're all hypocrites and they're wrong about me because actually I'm a hopeless romantic and I'm doing the mature thing by handling the dirty work" is the other half. That's what was comfortable

Okay I get it, that's fair. But I think it's worth mentioning that what he tells himself is different from the truth. Just because he thinks (or lies to himself) he's doing the noble self-sacrificing thing, it doesn't mean that's the whole reason for why he does what he does. Additionally, I don't think "everyone thinks I'm the worst so I'm gonna prove them right" is true either, not entirely; it isn't just a self-destructive act for him, he actually enjoys what he does, "winning" over people and making a fool out of them, not only proving they were right about thinking the worst of him but also proving them wrong for underestimating his potential and how good he can be at what he does. That's also a very significant part of his character.

He likes it; him and Kim like making a fool out of people and winning, not just for a "good cause", not just against those who "deserve it". They like it for petty reasons too, they like it for shit and giggles and feeling good about themselves. That's their tragedy and a big part of their arc.

But I reiterate: "dealing with his problems" in this context would have meant unburdening himself of this terrible secret of what happened to his colleague and rejoining the "right" side of the legal field by cooperating with Eriksen. And even in a parallel universe where he wanted to do that, he couldn't have. So this secret had to just sort of weigh on his mind and continue to warp his perception of morality.

I disagree. I think what happened with Howard is just the tip of the iceberg. Jimmy's problems go way deeper than that. To reinterate, he could deal with his problems without having to confess to what happened with Howard, because his problems were never really about that. Howard was just a consequence.

A lot of this comes down to the fact that ironically we still never SAW an average day in the law offices of Saul Goodman. In BCS we get to see this devastating chain of events that lead up to him launching his practice, and in BrBa, we saw him interact with ONE client who was such a pain in the ass to work for that it eventually torpedoed his career. But we still aren't given key details like... what percentage of his clients were cartel and who were just regular poor people, whether Jimmy breaking the law to serve the interests of his clients was a regular thing, how often Mike offered him "jobs" and what kind, whether Jimmy ever rejected those job offers, or what his relationship to Gus was leading up to him recommending him to Walter.

I get what you're saying but I also want to ask, why? Why do we need to see all that? Why do we need to see saul's day to day? Why do we need to know his other clients and what were his true connections to Gus or the cartel? I don't see how knowing the answers to those questions would change the story in a significant way. The only thing it would change is the extent to which one might be willing to "absolve" saul or not. And that's what I take issue with.

Jimmysaul doesn't need absolving, we don't need to see how many old ladies he helped crossing the street to get a better understanding of his character. Everything's already there in both shows, "the good, the bad and the ugly". That would not change anything. Jimmy was Saul and Saul was Jimmy. Saul was always there in him and vice versa (and differently from walt and his heisenberg, we actually see Jimmy being Saul prior to Kim leaving: chuck dying is the catalyst but he was Saul even before that as well. So it's not really about "transformation" like Walt's story supposedly was). You seem to want an "acceptable" reason to reconcile the Jimmy you like with the Jimmy you don't like in your mind, but there isn't a clean-cut one.

To further use brba as an example, we also don't know many things about those characters and their lives prior to the pilot. We don't know who Walt was prior to his diagnosis, we don't even know exactly what happened between him and Elliot, Gretchen and grey matter, and that's a pretty important part of the story that's mostly left for the viewers to fill-in the blanks however they like it. The Walt we see in the few flashbacks we get is very different from the Walt from the pilot. How did he get to that point? How good of a husband and father he was prior to his diagnosis? Judging by how skyler and walt jr react in the first season, I'd say he was an okay-to-good one.

We also don't know much about Jesse and his parents' relationship prior to the point we see, when they've already given up on him. We don't know much about Skyler and Marie's background and home life, why their relationship was strained and sometimes difficult, why Skyler has an unhealthy need to keep up the appearance of a happy family to her kids even to the detriment of herself or their own safety.

And we don't need to see all that, all those details, because we can piece it together with what we were given. That's the style of these writers and I actually appreciate it more often than not, because it's not didactic and it doesn't give fans an easy excuse to woobify the characters (which is why I was mad over the flashbacks in BCS that do that) Because at the end of the day, it would not change a thing. It would not change what happened and what they did.

Anyways I went off on a tangent but yeah I think the narrative they were able to tell with BCS and BrBa were enough to give us a glimpse of who jimmysaulgene is and just like you said I assumed you were trying to paint him as morally good, you seem to assume that I'm trying to paint him as morally bad but that's not the case either. I'm just at peace with the parts that make him "unlikeable" to some viewers. (Because let's face it, even if we acknowledge that doing 'immoral' things out of love is selfish and Wrong, we're still conditioned and socialized to think of it as a "less of" evil, one that's not only understandable but even forgivable. It's the other less "pretty and romantic" selfish reasons were more reluctant to accept).

Because ultimately that's what the shows were about. The circumstances that drove those characters to do what they did and become what they became are important (and I think you're not entirely wrong in questioning how well the writers were able fit them in the story) butt at the end of the day, both shows were always character studies, so no matter how trapped the characters might've felt in their situations, the point is that they ended where they did mostly by their own hands, because they did what they wanted, because they followed their "worst impulses".

It was about them and their own flaws. I could come up with a bunch of reasons for why walt did a lot of the things he did; I understand why he didn't take elliott's money and I think it makes sense, I don't hate him for it, I can even sympathize with where he's coming from. But just because I can understand and sympathize doesn't mean that I think he couldn't or shouldn't have done differently. Circumstances are important but ultimately the characters are trapped in a prison of their own making. Mike chose to continue as a corrupt cop even when he wasn't a cop anymore, he just had a different boss. Nacho and Jesse are probably the closest we had of characters that were trapped by other people but even then, they had their chances to get out. Jesse even more so than Nacho.

I'm not trying to say jimmy had "complete free will". I acknowledge that the line separating what is free will and what isn't might seem blurry in this show and I think that's done intentionally. I understand jimmy might have felt like there was no going back for him, like Mike did (although I think the fact Kim was able to leave makes a pretty strong case against that, highlighting how him continuing down that road was his choice more so than anything else). I even acknowledge that getting out wasn't an easy feat but the point is that: 1) he had that option; and 2) he didn't even try.

I see BCS as a show about people rather than fate, so I think not accounting for their choices or trying to soften the role they played in their own tragedy works against the goal of analyzing them as people. Jimmy ultimately did what he wanted; maybe he wasn't happy, maybe he wanted to be with Kim more, but attributing his Saul trajectory solely to Kim and him not being with her is not accurate reading of the character and the show, imo. He was more than that and he had more reasons to be the way he was than her. His ideal world was to have his cake and eat it too, having her by his side. She was the one that didn't want it. Being with Kim wouldn't solve Jimmy's problems and it didn't, we saw that.

So Jimmy might have believed what he wanted about himself, it was comfortable for him to believe he had no choice (because then he wouldn't have to take responsibility over his choices, something he always avoided), it was comfortable for him to believe that he was doing it all for Kim (even if we don't have any evidence that's what he thought). It was more comfortable for him to be Saul Goodman than being Jimmy McGill because Jimmy McGill came with a lot of baggage.

That's how I view it anyway. That's my interpretation of the show and I think it was supported by the text in the end. But you're free to have a different view of it.

[xchiefhalliday]

Rowan hated clichés, but this one had never rung so true.

He returned home late from work one night, not long after taking on his new job, to find an expensive envelope slotted in his mailbox with just his name beautifully printed on the front in red pen. He recognised the handwriting instantly and a concoction of emotions started to brew within him. Anger, resentment, regret, upset, yearning… love.

Part of him wanted to rip open the envelope and the other part wanted to throw in in the fire, but after pouring himself a glass of whisky and sitting down at the dining table, Rowan fished his glasses out of his pocket and tore open the envelope’s seal.

The one that got away might have been younger than him by a decade, but she made Rowan feel like there was still some life in him and like love truly was possible despite the hopelessness in the world. Her charm and gentleness was utterly enchanting, her bright smile captivating, and her creativity knowing no bounds. She was such a flirt at first, too; always complimenting his pristine uniform, his assertiveness, and his dazzling green eyes. Rowan knew that she had really fallen for him in the exact same way he’d fallen for her- slowly and then all at once- even if she’d been quick to deny it at the time. And her letter was simply confirmation that he had been right all along.

The letter itself read:

I heard you got the promotion of a lifetime- congratulations! I can’t think of a more deserving person to take on the role of the police chief of New York City. I’m sure your family must be very proud and I have no doubt your father is. I’m very proud of you, too.

I didn’t just write you to say that, though. It probably doesn’t mean much anymore, but I’m sorry. Deeply and truly. I didn’t think too much of my my actions when I left you, but it’s been something that’s weighed on my mind for some time now. I understand if you can’t forgive me and I certainly don’t expect you to, but the only way to make this right was to send you this letter with what I hope you don’t think is a feeble attempt at an excuse or explanation.

I was never very honest with you, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t love you. The most honest thing I ever said was that I love you. I had things with you that I didn’t have with my ex-husband, like the fact you always had time for me no matter how busy you were, you listened to me even when I was distressed over the silliest things, and you alway supported my work even when my frustrations made me snap and doubt myself. There’s no amount of gratitude in the world that I could ever repay you with and even now I owe you more than just gratitude. I could never give you what you deserve, though, I won’t ever be able to face the debt, emotional or otherwise.

I will always love you, Rowan, and nothing will ever change that. Our circumstances have put us on opposite sides of a line that neither of us can cross, but perhaps in other lifetime you and I would have been happily married and taking on the world together. I try not to think about what could have been because it only makes me realise how much I messed up; you know me, I would never admit to my flaws out loud, but that needed to be addressed. However, as much as I regret letting you go, it was the right thing to do. It meant that you could dedicate yourself to your job and to the people of New York without something bad ever happening to me, without having to worry if I’d be threatened by somebody you’d put behind bars, and without you ever being ruled by your heart instead of your head.

You’re a good man- the best I know- and I hope that you don’t change for anybody.

Purposely, she had broken his heart. And truthfully, it had never healed. If he knew then what he knew now, then Rowan wouldn’t have let Evie go so easily, but maybe her strength and determination to leave saved him the heartache and effort of having to beg her to stay. She was also such a private person and he a public one and that maybe they were just too polarising to have worked out. Evie was so wrong for him, but everything had felt so right: another stupid cliché Rowan hated, yet fit the situation perfectly.

The letter, which would later find its permanent home in his nightstand drawer, was conflicting. It didn’t make Rowan feel better, however it didn’t make him feel worse either. But he did appreciate it. It was implied that she would never intentionally see him again, although he hoped that he’d one day see Evie on the other side of the street wearing her signature red coat, the confident expression that said ‘I’m unstoppable’, and that Rowan would catch her eye and they’d exchange smiles, both of them knowing it was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

[haloxsaisha]

So Good.

[Lewis Hamilton x Actress!Reader]

Based on: So Good by Halsey.

Warnings: Angst, Abu Dhabi and Monza 2021 (I'm so sorry), some fluff, few cheesy dialogues (cause I'm a dumbass), depression, insomnia, eating disorder and weight loss.

Word Count: 15.5K words (I've never written this much in my life so far, I'm so proud of myself).

A/N: My first Lewis fic, I wasn't expecting it to be done with during the Abu Dhabi race week but oh well💀 I'm personally quite happy with how this turned out! I hope y'all like it <33

Bold and italicized font: song lyrics.

Italicized font: flashbacks.

“I remember the night, I was so frustrated.”

You could only bury your hands, head filled with shock and completely blank.

You never thought this would ever happen to anybody, let alone just him. Nobody who had watched the sport did.

Everything inside you began to sink in the moment the whole mess about unlapping the cars started and as the rest of the race unfolded, you felt yourself crumbling.

Lewis staying in his car in silence, in disbelief at the parc ferme had been playing on your mind again and again.

You were supposed to be there. You had to be there for him.

You had apologized to him multiple times for not being there in a championship decider race, especially at a win that was so historically important but he dismissed your countless apologies saying that he could understand. You had been shooting for a movie in London since November, which also meant that you hadn't met each other in more than a month, work and COVID restrictions making its way in. There was one thing that you and Lewis always stood by, which was that your jobs would be given the first priority. Understandable from both sides because your works usually involve a lot of people, meaning that compromising on it was quite hard and it was also very important to both of you from an emotional perspective, although you had to admit the Formula 1 driver was reaching an equivalent position to your work in your heart.

You watched him speak in the post race interview and then the moment he shared with his father, leaning his head as he took in the encouraging words being whispered in his ear. He had always been so strong and it was something you admired about him.

You sent him a message (which you hoped would provide a bit of comfort), mentioning that what happened was unfair, he deserved that win after everything he'd been through the entire season and that night and how proud you were of him. Also adding that he could call you when he felt like doing so because he wouldn't be in the headspace to talk to people at the time.

Seven hours later, you were done with your scenes for the day at ten in the night. The first thing you did after entering the vanity was checking your phone and your message to him was still at 'delivered', which increased your worry and anxiety.

After a bit, you got the idea of dropping a message to Angela, who was somebody you were close to too. You knew the Wolffs, Miles and Daniel, you even met his parents, stepmum and his siblings too when you'd been to the Silverstone race but Angela was somebody you bonded along with very well. She was one of the sweetest persons you'd met and also took care of you like an older sister would whenever you were around.

But you'll only get a response a while later since it's probably the wee hours at Abu Dhabi right now, you thought as you sighed. The race and your work has already drained out all your energy and despite your mind being absolutely restless because of how anxious you felt, but you had to drive yourself to sleep somehow. The director wouldn't be happy seeing her lead actress with puffy eyes and barely any energy the next day.

By the time you landed on your bed, it struck midnight and your phone let out the notification sound, showing the message from Angela which said that Lewis wasn't doing great and hadn't spoken to anybody yet.

Now how were you going to be able to sleep after knowing that?

“I touch your hand for the first time, I see it on your face, then another lifetime's flashin' by.”

"You see the star there? That one's called Sirius." he tells you, pointing to a specific region in the night sky.

"I didn't peg you to be somebody who was familiar with Harry Potter references, Hamilton." you give him a surprised, yet impressed look.

"There's a lot more to me than meets the eye darling, you'll see." he tells you cockily and you playfully rolled your eyes, shaking your head.

"This might just be one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen." you said in awe, your eyes fixed at the sparkling stars laid on an endless canvas of the dark blue sky.

"Mhm yeah, it definitely is." the sweet and distracted voice of the man who'd been surrounding you and your thoughts for the past couple of months came through and you turned your head towards him, finding him looking at you.

You felt your cheeks heat and you could only let out a giggle in response, not knowing how to respond because of how flustered he made you feel.

Lewis Hamilton was definitely a lot more cheesy than one would ever assume.

"I'm sorry I couldn't plan anything fun, there's pandemic restrictions so everything around is almost shut." he apologizes and you melt at how heartful he sounds about it.

"Don't be ridiculous Lew, I've loved every moment of this date so far." you assure him with a soft smile. Star gazing with somebody you've admired for so long as a first date was something that nobody could beat.

"Well, how can I make the date better?" he asks and your eyes light up in silent laughter thinking he's joking but then you look at him, it turns out that he was actually being serious.

Dear god, what type of dates had this man been on?

"Well that's a hard one because I feel like the date has already met the standards." you pretend to think for a moment "Maybe you could let Roscoe join us?" you ask him, giving him a grin which made him fall for you even more.

"Now that's not fair." he playfully whines "This time is for us. He loves you too much, will take away all your attention from me." he said, referring to all the times the both of you spend with your mutual friends. He was right, the bulldog did take a lot of your time.

"Well I've at least gotta win over one heart right?" you said, reflecting your doubts about him considering if the thing between the both you was anything serious or not.

"Well in that case, his heart will be the second one you've won over from this house." he said and you looked at him, your eyes softening with warmth and your cheeks turning red as you move closer to him.

He feels it too, you thought as he wrapped his arm around you, making you sigh in bliss.

Nearly two years later, the morning after the catastrophic race, the first thing you saw after waking up were the words "I don't think I can do this anymore, I need some space and time away." on your phone and at that moment, you had been absolutely destroyed.

It felt like everything in you had just been dropped down and shattered without any noise, you just feel so hollow and empty on the inside.

You couldn't ridicule him for feeling devastated, anybody would understand how much yesterday meant to him and how it affected him even if they didn't know him personally.

But you believed that you were comfortable enough to be with each other through any situation, happiness or despair. You believed that he found the same comfort, solace and safety that you found in him.

But it turns out that he didn't. The both of you went all the way from a video call like a regular couple would before the race to a text like somebody that didn't really mean anything to him a later, he pushed you out.

“I bet you're happy and that's fine. But I regret just one thing, I never got to change your mind”

He'd been back on the screens for the next season. Despite all the news about him discontinuing racing, you knew he'd go back.

Racing was everything to him, it was quite literally everything he'd known. He'd spoken openly about the struggles that him and his dad faced to reach where he was in the racing industry.

He knew how to rise up from the worst moments, he always had it in him.

You were still a mess. It had been almost three months since the text which broke everything in you. But there he was, having interviews with his teammate, a happy grin on his face.

Being an F1 fan for a long time, you always kept up with whatever news was on about the grid and Lewis had quite the spotlight when it came to headlines about his professional life or personal life.

You knew that he wasn't really the person for serious relationships after a point in his career. All of his focus was on Formula 1, rightfully so, which was why one night stands and short flings were what he went for.

You knew that even before you met him, you knew it whilst being friends but you still agreed to date him despite that one thing freaking you out. He had a hold on you, such an aura around him. You were always in this bubble of happiness, positivity and peace when you were with him.

Although his past relationships made you think about a lot of 'what if-s', how could you say no to a guy who made you feel like that?

Well, this was the consequence of giving in to emotions rather than logic. Your heart had been shattered like fritted glass, while he was back to normal like the break up was nothing but a minor collateral damage.

Work was always a top priority but all those moments that the both of you shared had a lot of meaning right?

“And I'm doin' okay. In the back of my mind, all I hear is your name”

The last time you slept well was the night before the Abu Dhabi race. You were normally a light sleeper, which gave you a pretty decent amount of sleep to feel good the next day.

But ever since that night, your sleep had come down only a few hours every week. You'd just walk about the room feeling restless, scroll through your phone or laptop or the television to pass time, there were some days where you just stared at the ceiling, the thoughts in your head just rushing in with memories of Lewis and you'd end up bursting into tears, sleeping over taking you after your eyes would turn red and puffy. And after two or three hours, you'd be awake again, tossing and turning around the bed.

And it was safe to say the sight of food started making you feel sick, your face would literally scrunch at the sight of it. But you still had to eat a minimum amount of food that would help you survive a day at work. Completely cutting out on food, which you had the urge to do, would completely affect the image on you and your career, which you felt was too risky.

Everybody had noticed you spiralled down, you could feel it too but you just stopped caring about anything after a point, you just felt so empty in your head to push yourself. Acting was the only thing that had you taking steps forward in life.

Soon enough, there were articles out on the news about you, commenting on the drastic weight loss that had been noticed in you, caused by the change in your eating habits. Your fans also began to notice how your use of social media had come down drastically, since you always had the habit of interacting with them frequently and also shared random pictures and videos from your day at work, especially if it was in a place far from home.

And that made the pressure from the people close to you increase. After getting to know about your break up with Lewis, your parents and close friends urged you to talk more, to let out how you were feeling. But you always convinced them by saying that you were alright, that you understood why he needed the break up and you just went along with life, your work satisfying you at the moment.

The moment you came back home after you were done with the movie you were working on for the past couple of months, the first thing your mum did was make you sit next to her and reminded you of all the hard times you'd been through, of all the people you had in your life who still cared for you and loved you, about how there were people out there who admired your work.

And that's when it struck you, that yes, you did lose a particular feeling love in your life. But there was so much more to life that made living your life whole heartedly rather than making it more painful for you, more that you'd already been through because of your heart getting broken by a certain British man.

You took a small break from your work and the fast life around you, spending the time with your family and friends, parallelly going to therapy as well. Although the scar of that heartbreak was always going to remain, the slow paced yet quality time helped your wounds heal little by little.

And then you were back to work, feeling better than you'd been for the past couple of months. You were able to breathe freely, feeling the light weighted space in you.

But there were still certain things that reminded you of him. One day, you saw a bull dog being taken on a walk by its owner, your mind would fly to how Roscoe would lie down in between you and Lewis, snuggling in the night. The smell or sight of tea would remind you about how the both of you would keep arguing about whether tea or coffee was better, you loving coffee and him being always so British and loving tea. But nevertheless he knew how to make coffee the way you liked it and you knew the same for his tea. The sound of a piano would remind you of the times he would play it and sing his favourite songs, even teaching you the basics of how to play it sometimes. Stargazing and watching Formula 1 was something you just stopped altogether, not being able to handle the intensity of the emotions it brought in you.

If there was anything that made you feel relieved now, it was about how it didn't hurt as much as it used to and how the control he had your thoughts had come down.

"Talkin' wildly out of context, I wish things were different. But I'll never know”

What the hell just happened, you thought as you looked at the screen of the TV in the garage.

It took you everything to not break into a string of curse words but if anything, you were really worried if Lewis was okay.

The man literally had a car on top of his with the tyres nearly touching his head, dear god.

And you had no clue how he would react after coming back to the garage. He wasn't the one to tantrums but was he somebody who just stayed quiet? Did he deal with the anger he felt? Would he like having anybody around him to comfort him? Or did he prefer being alone?

You had spent a good number of days with him, an amount of time that could turn into a bunch of months if you added them up, but all the races you'd been to for the past year were always good ones. You were there when he won his seventh world championship but this was the first time you were around during a bad race, a one with a scary DNF.

He didn't know you were here for the race. Due to the COVID protocols, you had to quarantine for a few days before being able to meet Lewis and you didn't have a break or gap of that many days that often which made being at his races quite hard. So you thought that you could surprise him at the Monza GP, coming into the garage after he got into the car.

What you planned was to hide in some corner of the Mercedes garage and meet him in his driver's room after he went there, yelling a cheerful "surprise!". But you obviously couldn't do that now, considering what just happened. How you would meet him was barely on your mind now, you were scared about how he was after the crash.

"Hey, he's back in his driver's room. You can go and meet him now." Angela came and told you, a few minutes after you were restlessly tapping your feet up and down.

"Oh thank god, how is he? No injuries right?" you ask her anxiously, a shaky breath leaving your body.

"He's alright now, nothing serious has happened to him. He has some headache and pain in the neck, he'll be back to normal in a matter of some time." she assures you, giving you a comforting smile and places her around your shoulder, knowing how worried you get about him.

"Would he be alright with having me around now Ange? I think he'd want some silence for now." you said, giving her an unconvincing smile.

"Don't be ridiculous, he just had a scary race. None of his family and close friends are around now either, he'll obviously love to have you around now. You'll make his day better and he'll calm down." Angela convinces you and you walk towards his driver's room, still debating in your mind if you should step in or not.

Angela knocks the door and speaks out so that Lewis thinks it her, rushing towards the team before Lewis opens the door so that the both of you can have your space.

The sound of the room's door opening brings you out of your over thinking. "Um, hey?" you tell him in a shaky voice, eyes scanning over him to see if he was alright. Of course Angela wouldn't lie to you but for some reason, it wasn't sinking in your mind until you saw him.

His eyes widened in surprise "You're here? Wait a minute- you're actually here." he says and his reaction made your nerves calmed down a bit.

"Well, the plan was to keep a rather happy surprise." you say, giving him a weak smile "If you want to be alone for some time, I'll go back and sit with Ange, I totally understand-" he cut off your rambling by taking your hand in his and pulling you in for a hug.

"Don't be ridiculous, I'm glad you're here. C'mon in." he said, wrapping his arms around your waist and placing his forehead on your shoulder "missed you and that scent so much." he mumbles as you place your hand through his braids, running your fingers through his hair to calm him down, like he always liked it.

"I can feel your heartbeat and it's going crazy. We've been together for a year and I still scare you?" he teases you, referring to the initial days of knowing him. Timid was an understatement. Having been a huge fan of the sport and him for years before you first met him, you always shared many shy smiles and few words with him, scared that your rather talkative side which always went on rambling would annoy him.

"I don't know- that just, that was scary. I'm so worried baby, the tyre was literally so close to your head." you sighed as he sat on the couch, placing you on his lap.

"Stuff like this happens time and again in racing, you've watched it over the years. At that moment I tried to shuffle inside the car as much as possible and lowered my head down, so nothing from the car reached my head. Don't worry sweetheart, I'm totally alright." he says, rubbing circles on your waist in the hopes of calming you down.

"Ange told me you have a headache and neck pain though, don't lie to me." you mumbled, pushing away the braids to a side and placing a small kiss on his forehead. He just gives you a reassuring smile, his eyes signifying that it'll be gone soon and he places his head on your shoulder, snuggling in for comfort as you placed your hand on his back and rubbing it up and down.

Thinking of the memory from that day made you wonder only one thing. Would the both of you still be together if you were together? If he would've seeked your comfort or just push you away nevertheless.

You guess you'd never know, Monza was one DNF while what happened at Abu Dhabi was something brought in such loss and affected his perspective about his career and life.

You knew it didn't end well, there were so many things left unspoken between the two of you. It was bad, but both of you would've been so good together.

[gatorbites-imagines]

Would you ever do another poly Ghostface x himbo reader?

Billy Loomis x Stu Macher x Himbo Male reader

Headcanons

Part 2

This is connected to the other imagine I wrote, but could be read as stand alone, I think?

-          You learn about the murders the next day, and begin to worry and fret over Billy and Stu, making sure they’re not hurt.

-          There’s no chance you even suspect them of being the killers as you couldn’t fathom them doing that kind of thing.

-          They thank whatever holy is watching over them.

-          It’s a small town, so the officers most likely know you, so they also know you aren’t the brightest, so you aren’t even a suspect, but they have to question you anyways.

-          The three of you are pulled into questioning, and you embarrassed tell them you got drunk and passed out in Stu’s room.

-          You feel blood drain from your face as you mentioned Stu’s room. Because no one knows the three of you are together, and its weird for a guy to sleep in another guy’s bed.

  -          The officers question why you were there, and you tell them your teammates told you about the party, so you went, but everyone else left not long after for some reason, so you just watched movies and got drunk with Randy.

-          They ask about your relationship with Sidney and Tatum, as they were also killed. You explain how the three of you had been arguing, because of what had happened with Billy.

-          The officers keep asking about your relationship to Billy and Stu, and you fumble over your words and can’t look them in the eye as you blush.

-          They seem to understand at some point what is going on between you three, and that’s why you try and fail not to talk about it, and they let you go.

  -          You end up going home as Billy and Stu are still being questioned. And seeing as school and all your practice has been cancelled for at least a week or two, you just flop down on your bed.

-          You end up falling asleep as you still have a killer hangover.

-          When you wake up, its because Stu flops himself down on top of you which startles you awake.

-          You wrap your arms around Stu, and bury your face in his neck as frustrated tears gather in your eyes because of everything that’s happened.

-          Billy sits down on your other side, and runs a hand through your hair. He mutters quiet comforting words as you cry.

-          When the emotions have finally become more manageable, you get out of bed and go to take a shower as you hadn’t been able to that morning.

  -          The two killers quietly talk together. They had already decided to tell you nothing and keep you in the dark.

-          They loved you very much, but they didn’t want you involved. They knew you were too sweet to hurt anybody, and would rather turn it on yourself than anyone else.

-          They just had to go out of their way to protect you, as they didn’t want your light to be put out by anyone else, and if that meant they had to pull on the Ghostface mask again to do it, they would.

  -          When you finally finished showering, you came back into the room in your boxers and the three of you cuddled on your bed.

-          You pressed soft pecks against the bruises the two had gotten, from what you believed to be the killer. And you made extra sure to take care around their stab wounds.

-          As the two cuddled in on either side of you, they could almost feel their heart swell as you looked at them with worry, not wanting them to hurt.

-          After Billy told you they were alright, you settled in and turned on a movie on your tv.

-          The two killers only became more sure in their decision, that you made to be protected and cared for.

[purple-babygirl]

request if open; daddy!bucky had a bad day and little!reader is just trying to comfort him but he accidently lashes out and yells at her/pushes her and immediately feels guilty but she regresses even more into her little space and is scared of him, you can kinda play around w this and figure out how it ends! xx

Pairing: Mafia!Daddy!Bucky Barnes x f!little!reader

Word Count: 3,423 (you know you love me)

Warnings: ddlg dynamics, yelling, harsh treatment, crying, angst turned fluff?

A/N: thank you so much for sending this in, nonnie. i took your request and ran with it to angst land. Hope you enjoy xx💜

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“Dada,”

She could see Bucky’s frown, the lines on his forehead wrinkling his handsome face up. She knew it meant he was upset and she never wanted Daddy to be upset. She knew he never left her upset.

Bucky’s been looking like that since he walked through the mansion door that morning, barely acknowledging her when she greeted him. He almost forgot to give her her welcome-home kiss even.

“Not now, angel,” Bucky murmured, proceeding to flip through the papers covering his desk, huffing and puffing every now and then at the mess he was stuck trying to fix.

“Wanna show you somethin’,” she whispered, biting back a smile.

“Later, angel. I’m busy right now.”

He regretted telling her to come in. He should’ve known she’d be nothing but a distraction.

“Dada, jus’ take one look,” she bounced on her feet before slipping a neat sheet of paper on top of Bucky’s desk, momentarily blocking his view of the contracts he was angrily staring at. Now that made Bucky mad.

“I said I was busy!” Bucky shouted as his head snapped to her, his hand slamming down on the paper without even seeing it, blindly crumpling it and throwing it on the floor at her feet. She flinched at the sudden outburst, taking a step back.

“Dada,” tears filled her eyes as she looked at her discarded paper. Bucky just broke her heart.

“Why don’t you ever listen!” Bucky grabbed her arm tighter than usual, pulling her back to him, “How many times do I need to repeat the words for you to understand! I said not now, didn’t I?!” He let go of her arm with more force than he’d intended, making her stumble a little.

She was terrified now. Her heart pounded in her chest as she looked at Bucky with wide eyes. He has never lashed out on her like that, not even when she was big. She was scared. As her breath picked up, she wished she’d never left her playroom.

“Get out and don’t step into this office again until I tell you you can, you hear me?” Bucky growled, oblivious to the signs of regression and horror showing on her face.

Her quick nods set off no alarms in his head as he watched her run out of his office.

Bucky felt bad about taking his anger out on her the second she fled the room. He flopped back down with a huff, flipping through the contracts again and again with no focus. He threw them down carelessly, running his fingers through his hair, tugging at the roots in frustration.

Cracking his hurting neck, Bucky regretted raising his voice at her. He couldn’t see the words on the contracts; her teary eyes flashing through his mind every time he tried reading.

Why did he have to yell? He could’ve just looked at her paper. She was likely trying to show him a drawing. Why couldn’t he just go with it? He’s sworn he’d never let anybody hurt his angel and then he goes and does this?

Bucky was ashamed. What kind of Daddy was he if he treated his little like that? It was no excuse that he was still getting used to being a Daddy. Bucky knew that wasn’t how a man should treat his girl.

He bowed forward, picking up the balled paper by his desk. He carefully straightened it, deciding to fix his angel’s damaged drawing and make it up to her.

Only it wasn’t a drawing; the paper was a handwritten Daddy-Angel contract. It even had colourful flowers, bees and butterflies decorating the paper and everything.

She was probably trying to play office with him; probably just wanted Bucky to pretend he was signing her paper too.

A sad smile spread across Bucky’s lips as he read the paper. The contract stated that

- Dada will smile

- Dada will not be angry no more

- Dada will let me sit on his lap (will be quiet pp)

- Dada will play with me after work

Dada: ……………..

The paper ended with a free space for Bucky to sign in case of agreement to the ‘terms’.

There were a lot of moments where Bucky wished he could turn back time, but not being able to do so in this very moment seemed to torture him the most. He was an asshole.

She just wanted him to calm down. She respected that he was working and she wasn’t trying to interrupt, she merely wanted him to smile. She even pinky promised to sit quietly in his lap.

Bucky has messed up and it was for nothing because the damage to his work has already been done. He shouted at her like she was responsible when she was just trying to help him feel better.

Bucky got his pen out of his pocket, signing the empty place by his name, remorsefully sighing at his utter stupidity.

~

“Angel,” Bucky called, knocking on the door before opening it.

She wasn’t in her playroom, but Bucky could see her round table full of similar papers to the one he had folded in his pocket.

She’s made at least 6 of these ‘contracts’, some of them were written in different colours or had spelling mistakes.

She’d obviously worked hard until she settled on the paper to give him and he ended up throwing it on the floor.

Bucky’s hand rubbed his face, frustrated at himself and his lack of control. An asshole was what he was. An asshole.

“Angel, where are you, baby?” Bucky sighed, opening the bedroom door to see her sitting, hugging her knees on the large bed.

She looked too tiny bundled up like that and her muffled sniffles punched at Bucky’s heart.

“Angel.”

She only lifted her head up when she felt the bed dip under Bucky’s weight and panic flashed over her delicate features.

“Baby, don’t cry,” Bucky said, his hand instinctively moving to wipe her tears only to have her flinch back, squeezing her eyes shut as if she was awaiting a blow.

Bucky’s heart stopped beating for a second when he realized what had just happened.

She was scared of him. His angel had flinched away from his touch. A huge lump formed in Bucky’s throat as she opened her eyes again, “angel?”

“Please don’ hurt me. Won’ come to the office. Won’ leave the room.” She shook her head and sobbed, scurrying back on the bed and away from Bucky.

This pained Bucky more than any punishment he thought he deserved. The look on her face was enough for him to want the walls to open up and swallow him.

“Angel, I would never hurt you. You know that.” Bucky whispered, sniffing back the tears about to spill down his bearded cheeks.

He needed to hear her say she did. He needed to know she knew Bucky could never hurt her.

She looked from Bucky to her left arm where his metal hand had grabbed her earlier. His fingers had left a mark around her arm. The skin was still pulsing as if his hold on her never loosened.

It was too late and it didn’t matter what he said because he’d already hurt her and the evidence was on her body.

Bucky’s mouth opened and closed as he swallowed again. He didn’t know what to say. He was supposed to be the one protecting her, not the one hurting her. How could he do such a thing to his angel?

“Oh, baby,” he breathed, shaking his head regretfully before trying to get closer to her.

Her instant reaction was to crawl back further and Bucky’s heart sank to his stomach. He felt his soul leaving his body when he looked her in the eyes and saw fear.

A tear betrayed him, falling down, gliding by his lips. Bucky wiped it away quickly, sniffing and clearing his throat.

“I signed your contract, angel.” Bucky got the paper out of his pocket, opening it and putting it on the bed for her to see.

Her eyes looked down and more tears left them at the sight of her once fine work now ruined.

“I’m so sorry, angel. Daddy was bad, baby. I’m sorry,” Bucky pleaded, his fingers reaching out for hers.

She pulled her hand away quickly, hiding it behind her back and Bucky knew he had really messed up. It was no use trying.

She was scared of him. His touch frightened her and was no longer a symbol of comfort to her.

He took his hand away, straightening his back and getting off the bed.

“I-I’ll see you at lunch then.” Bucky sniffed again.

“And angel?” he called from the door, getting her attention.

“Thank you for caring for daddy. I love you.” Bucky has never heard his voice as weak as he did in that moment and he felt even worse when she didn’t say it back.

~

When the table was set and Bucky came out of his office to find her chair empty, another lump was quick to form in his throat.

He wasn’t even hungry. He had no appetite to eat; he just wanted to see her but didn’t have the guts to peek into their bedroom again.

“Angel?” Bucky was ready to knock on the bedroom door but it was already open.

He carefully pushed it and took a look inside to find the bed empty. He tried not to freak out as he knocked the en suite bathroom door and got no answer. When he opened it, she wasn’t there either.

Bucky could hear his own blood pumping in his ears because she was no where to be found in her playroom as well.

She left. She left him and she had every right to. How could he lose her? How could he lose the one good thing in his life?

Tears distorted Bucky’s vision as his hand clutched the side of the door. His heart clenched at the thought of never seeing her again, never hearing her sweet voice call for him again; never getting to smell her on his pillow again.

The sound of her feet padding on the floor behind him pulled Bucky out of his head and he thought he’d imagined it for a second. He turned around and she froze when his eyes fell on her.

She shifted on her feet, hiding one behind the other and internally hoping Bucky wouldn’t notice she was roaming around with bare feet when he’d specifically asked her not to before.

That was the last of Bucky’s concerns at the moment though. He was just relieved she didn’t leave him even if he deserved it.

“Where were you, angel?” the tenderness of Bucky’s tone let her know he wasn’t mad at her for walking around shoeless.

“Couldn’ fin’ PinePine,” she replied softly, referring to the white feline, “’s lunch time.” Her eyes remained fixed on her feet as she avoided Bucky’s.

He was secretly thankful for that, not wanting her to see him in tears twice in the same day.

She was so pure; so caring and loving to everyone around. Bucky found himself slightly jealous of his own cat for a second there.

“Where did you find, PinePine?” He asked calmly, just wanting to hear her speak to him.

“Downstairs,” she answered shortly, leaving Bucky disappointed.

“Let’s go then. The table’s set.” Bucky smiled, hesitantly offering her his hand.

She stood unmoving for a few seconds, eyes still casted down, before she decided to hold onto Bucky’s pointer.

He sighed, knowing she was still scared but didn’t want to reject him. She was so sweet on him even when he least deserved it.

~

When lunch was over, Bucky let her know she could come to the office whenever she wanted, although he doubted she would. She gave a small nod before running back to the other room as Bucky shouted an “I’ll get back to work then.” behind her.

He didn’t actually get back to work. He couldn’t focus. He couldn’t think of anything but the way she pulled away from his touch every single time he tried to come near her, or the way she forced herself to hold one of his fingers as they walked less than 10 steps together to the dining room. She'd even begged him not to hurt her earlier.

How did he let himself fuck up so bad? When did they get there? What was he going to do now? How does one get forgiven after being this awful?

A lamp lit above the mafia boss’ head and he grabbed a clean sheet of paper before he could lose the idea.

Bucky was going to write his angel a contract. A pardon contract.

His Daddy-Angel 2.0 contract stated that:

- Angel will forgive Daddy

- Angel will not be sad with Daddy no more

- Angel will sit on Daddy’s lap (even if she doesn’t wanna be quiet)

- Angel will play with Daddy after work if she still wants to

Angel: …………….

Bucky sighed as he tried to draw anything other than sloppy hearts in the empty places around the words to decorate the paper but he was terrible at this. He was desperately in need of his angel’s forgiveness though so he scratched his beard and kept working.

Bucky needed to know she wasn’t actually scared of him; not her. Anyone but her. He wouldn’t be able to take it. He wouldn’t be able to ever tolerate himself if she didn’t forgive him.

Bucky’s tongue was hanging outside the side of his mouth as he drew another birdie on the bottom of the contract. It didn’t really look like a bird, unless of course that bird was struck by lightning a hundred times before, but Bucky thought it would do. After all, he was no artist. He didn’t draw. He didn’t deal with colours; he dealt with weapons. His hands were rough for a reason. But he would do anything for his angel. Anything to win her over again.

A knock on his door cut off his focus and Bucky groaned.

“Come in.”

He felt sorry for whoever had the bad luck of interrupting him during his contract-making, ready to yell at someone.

Bucky looked up from his desk when he didn’t hear anyone speaking, and his face has never softened so fast.

It was his girl who’d come into the office. She had her folded contract in her hand and her eyes were looking kind of puffy from crying.

Bucky just stared at her in remorse, pushing his chair back a bit as he watched her walk closer to his seat.

He wanted to tell her he was sorry. He was so sorry. He’s never been sorrier in his life. He wanted nothing more than to take every word and every harsh touch back.

She stood there for a second, waiting to see if Bucky was going to kick her out this time too. When he didn’t, she rounded the desk and stopped by Bucky’s chair.

Bucky remained speechless, not wanting to scare her away again. She came to him. She came on her own. Unless she came to throw the contract in his face and break up with him, that should be a good sign.

Her tongue peeked outside, wetting her lips nervously before she stretched an arm out, ever so carefully nearing it to Bucky’s thigh. Her gaze was glued to Bucky’s face, gauging his reaction. When Bucky’s frown didn’t show up she let her palm touch Bucky’s leg.

Bucky didn’t understand what she was doing but he wouldn’t dream of questioning her. He was just glad she was okay with touching him again at all after what he’d done, even if she was doing it so cautiously it broke his heart to a thousand pieces.

With her stare trained on Bucky, she stepped forward, slotting herself in the small space between Bucky’s chair and his desk, facing him. Her hands moved to grab on Bucky’s strong shoulders, still watching his face. She swallowed before effortlessly climbing on, cozily curling herself on his lap.

Bucky’s heart swelled as he felt her nose nuzzle his shirt. His own emotions overwhelmed him and tears gathered in his eyes.

“Angel?” his voice was barely a whisper as he looked down to her, careful not to startle her.

She looked up at him worriedly, thinking he didn’t want her where she was.

Her eyes showed fear for a short second before she unfolded the scrunched paper in her hand, a finger pointing to the third term.

“Dada signed,” she said, her eyes so innocent and Bucky couldn’t contain himself anymore.

“Oh, angel,” Bucky’s tears uncontrollably rolled down, wetting his beard.

He held her so close, she could hear his heartbeats drumming in his chest.

“Baby, I’m so sorry.” Bucky cried, wetly kissing her forehead over and over.

“I’m sorry, my angel. Forgive me,” he repeated, leaning down to kiss her bruised shoulder before lifting both hands to his lips and kissing them, “I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.”

“Dada,” her smaller hands cupped Bucky’s cheeks as sadness covered her features.

She’s never seen Bucky like that. Not even at his father’s funeral did he sob like that.

She didn’t know it but to Bucky, the thought of losing her hurt more than the actual loss of a family member who never gave two shits about him.

She was Bucky’s everything. His love, his partner, his companion, his baby angel. She was the one who stole his heart and took good care of it. Bucky would give up anything and everything in life and choose her to forever keep, protect and love.

Her short thumbs wiped under Bucky’s eyes, pushing his tears away. She turned to straddle him and wrapped her arms around his neck, laying her cheek on his shoulder.

The smell of her hair calmed Bucky’s heart down as he turned his face to kiss her head, hands settling on her back, “I will never hurt you, angel. Please tell me you know that, my love.”

Bucky’s hoarse voice had her pulling away from the hug. She sat back and looked her man in the eyes, her thumb brushing his chin, “I know,” she whispered and Bucky could see it in her eyes. She did. She believed him. She knew he wouldn’t hurt her.

She stroked Bucky’s cheeks as he sniffled, smiling gratefully at her reply. And his whole world lit up again when she smiled back, timidly pecking the corner of his pink lips.

Oh she was a real angel. No one’s ever been this kind to Bucky before, only her. Bucky kissed her hand one more time, quietly thanking her for forgiving him.

“I made you a contract too,” Bucky told her with a chuckle, pointing to the desk behind her as he wiped his face with the back of his hand.

Her mouth opened in a silent gasp, her smile reaching her wide eyes. She turned around in Bucky’s lap, planting her knees on the chair between Bucky’s open legs and stood on them to take a look.

She took her time reading the words and then she was off Bucky’s lap and bolting out of the room.

The man was about to lose it again, thinking she’d remembered his cruelty towards her and changed her mind when she came running back inside the office.

She climbed back on the chair between Bucky’s thighs, her glitter pen in hand.

Bucky sighed in relief, his lips spreading with an adoring smile as he watched her write her name letter by letter in glittery ink where her signature was needed. Bucky held her waist, kissing her back as he admired how focused she was.

She closed the cap on the pen, placing it on the desk before picking up the contract to show Bucky.

“Angel signed,” she beamed, plopping herself against Bucky’s chest and clinging to him, earning a hearty chuckle from him.

“I love you so much, angel. More than anything in the world.” Bucky gently held her face by the chin, giving her lips a short kiss.

“I love you too, dada.” She smiled, blushing as she hid her face in his chest again.

Bucky wrapped his arms around her, holding her to him and closing his eyes, just enjoying the feel of her body against his once more, silently promising his angel to never hurt her ever again.

~~

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Annoyance.

Doctor Stephen strange x fem!Reader.

Gif not mine, if you want it taken down please tell me.

Plot: You and strange always had fights and being annoyed with each other. Today he just realized why you had so many fights.

Warnings: Fighting (Nothing to bad), bad writing.

I’ve never written for him before in all my years of writing! And the thought of a annoyed strange is very funny to me.

Length: Very short.

Stephen Strange has been in alot of odd situations. Like fighting a purple alien that used magic stones to do what he thought was best.

Or when he found himself fighting or saving the most weird people or creatures.

But what he found the most strange was always fighting with a sarcastic brat who couldn’t keep her mouth shut. And no, she was never like that with anybody else but him.

“That’s not how it works” You commented at the man working beside you. He had been trying to open a door that seem to be having non of his magic.

“And you know how it works? I could open the door but I have a annoying woman who keeps interrupting me” He frustratingly said as he tried to use another spell.

“Interrupting you? I was enjoying a nice cup of tea when I saw you sneak down here and I knew you would do something stupid. And here we are” You cross your arms as he turned to look at you, again falling his attempts to open the door.

“You think you’re so smart don’t you? Hm, I bet you couldn’t even get as far as I have” he stepped away for you to try.

He didn’t understand why you hated him so much or why it got under his skin. The way you seemed to have so much hatred for him made him sick.

He didn’t like it.

“You really want into this door, huh? Allowing me to do your work, oh thank you so much doctor strange for I am only humble to obey” You bowed your head to him like someone do to a higher ups.

The sound of the sarcasm and sass in your voice made him grow even more frustrated. So he had finally broke and got angry.

“Why do you hate me so much? You can’t even keep your mouth shut for two minutes to help me. And don’t even get me started on the disrespect” He stop as he raised his voice at you.

“Oh and how did I disrespect you?“ You stepped forward and started to move your hands around dramatically.

“That right there. It is like I am not anyone but a being of annoyance.”

“Yeah, well. You are annoying with thinking you know best all the time”

You both now stood inch from each other. It wasn’t the first time you both had gotten into a fight like this.

“You do the same exact thing. Picking at every little thing I do, like you know everything about me”

“Because I do, you’re not that hard to read. From your stupid hair and your face to the voice that annoys me every waken moment” You pointed into his chest and looked right into his eyes.

“Well the feelings mutual, but what are going to do about it? Like you could” He laughed at his own comment seeing as it made you even more pissed.

“This”

You lended up and kissed him by pulling his face towards you. It was the easiest thing he had ever done by kissing you back. Arms around your waist and around his neck.

It was rough and passionate almost like another competition. But it was very hard to forget because it felt like it was meant to happen.

A big unlocking sound was heard and he pulled away from you and looked behind him. “Holy shit” He saw the room he has been trying to find, only to discover it was nothing like he expected.

“Don’t say I never did anything for you strange. Also why you wanted into a Casino room will forever be a question I hope to get answered.” He watches you turn away and sway your hips as you walked away.

He looked back to the door and you, then let out a laugh at what had just really happened.

“You got it bad” The voice of wong said from behind him coming from in the room.

“Shut up”

[canadiansummer]

TITLE: Tensions PAIRING: Dmitri Antonov x Reader / Enzo x Reader REQUEST: from anonymous: “Hey! I saw your post about one-shots/imagines to work on while you’re working on Fork in the Road. Was wondering if it could be something with American!reader x Enzo. Something like when Hopper, Murray, Enzo and Joyce are waiting for Yuri to fix the helicopter. Reader is waiting with them and Yuri is making rude comments to/about reader and Enzo defends them. Feel free to really make it your own. This is my first ever request so I’m sorry if this is terrible lmao!” WARNINGS: reader’s a smoker, Yuri being an asshole, some sexual insinuations.  NOTE: Thanks so much for requesting something! I hope this fulfills what you’re hoping to see!  

“Ignore him…” 

As much as you knew the passing comment was meant in good nature, you couldn’t help the frustration that settled in your gut as you placed a heavy, rusty tool box down inside the hangar that Yuri had just moved the helicopter from. Murray watched you with his arms crossed, a warning in his tone but knowing his mutual dislike of the man in question kept you from snapping at him too harshly. 

“I don’t think I need to tell you that I’m in over my head here,” you said, taking a glance toward the questionable looking aircraft. “I’m way more a pilot than an engineer, and he sniffed that out about me pretty early on. Doesn’t help that you and Joyce crashed the plane when you could have just asked me…” 

“Not our fault that we weren’t really thinking straight when the plane was in a nosedive toward the ground and you had been tossed around,” Murray returned with a bite that you had gotten used to from him. “I don’t like him either, but he has the only way out of here.” 

“Can’t change anything now,” you said around a sigh, “Can you keep an eye on him? Make sure he’s working. I need a break before I can stomach another stray comment.” 

“Only for the sake of keeping the peace…” Murray muttered, but you still gave him an understanding and grateful nod. 

You weren’t too sure what Hopper, Joyce, and ‘Enzo’ were doing in the church but at the moment you just wanted to seek out your discarded jacket that had been soaked in your journey through that drainage pipe from the prison. (Honestly, from the looks of it, you labeled it as ‘water’ for the sake of your sanity.) It had been a while since you had a cigarette and you doubted the withdrawal was helping your mood. 

Not casting a look over at the helicopter where Yuri was working, you entered the church to see the mentioned three looking like they were about to part off to do their own things. Hopper caught your gaze, gesturing toward him with a small tilt of his head. You had Hopper hadn’t been super close back in Hawkins–you were more of Murray’s friend than anybody else here, but you had family in Hawkins and you had been on at least friendly terms with Jim. Despite Murray having some unflattering opinions about him. 

Really, you had shown up under Murray’s request, but you could admit that it was nice to see him alive. Despite the current situation. 

“We got a call to the States–or, a request for one,” Hopper explained, “Though, it might take a while…” 

“Well, as much as Yuri boasts, that bird out there isn’t really ready to fly any time soon.” 

“I’m just not sure we have much time…” 

“Yeah…” you replied around a sigh–the time constraints hadn’t left your mind, but you didn’t want to dwell on it for too long. “Do you know where I put my old jacket?”

“That raggedy thing?” Hopper asked around a small huff, “It was going to give you hypothermia, I wouldn’t bother with it.” 

“I’m just looking for some cigarettes. Yuri is driving me up the damn wall.” 

“I have some,” Enzo said, causing you to glance toward him as he gestured subtly toward the front of the church with his head. 

Really, you hadn’t had much interaction with him–outside of the ransom note you had been handed once you arrived at Joyce’s in California. Though, meeting him at the prison, you picked up on his levelheadedness and decided he wasn’t too bad. Hopper seemed to trust him, at least. Though, considering Yuri at the moment, he certainly was the better of the new faces you saw. So, you gestured toward the door with your free hand. 

“Yeah, alright. Thanks.” 

You followed him out toward the side of the church, accepting a cigarette and leaning to light it when he offered. While you were grateful to satisfy the craving, you couldn’t help but feel like he was doing this for another reason. Unless he had some moral rejection about cigarettes in the church. The eventual glance he took toward the helicopter seemed to confirm that, which made you occupy your time by taking a drag from the cigarette as you waited for him to voice whatever he was thinking. 

“Murray said you are a pilot?” he asked, earning him a small nod from you as you blew out the smoke in your throat.

“Not usually of helicopters, but he wanted some extra precautions if things went south. That we would have someone who knew how to get out here. I just…didn’t account for the plane crashing…” 

“What do you think of Yuri?”

“We’re not exactly on good terms,” you muttered, casting him a curious glance, “Anyway, weren’t you the one who arranged his involvement? Unless you’re not actually ‘Enzo.’”

“I am,” he said, shaking his head somewhat after a moment, “I thought I could trust him. Now, I expect him to try to double-cross us again.” 

While you knew it would be easy to blame him for this whole thing going south, it might not hold. Judging from his appearance, the heavy bruising around his eye and the blood on his face, he had certainly suffered for his oversight. Still, he knew Yuri, your little group had just met him. If he thought he was going to try to double-cross them again, you figured you should take that worry seriously. 

“I don’t know airplanes or helicopters inside and out,” you began, shifting to turn toward him more, “but I know enough to guess when something’s taking too long. I’ll watch out for it.” 

“I will too,” he said, “I don’t like sitting here. It is only matter of time before the prison or government finds us. We can’t really sit here if he is playing games.” 

You nodded thoughtfully, taking a drag from your cigarette as you turned that over in your head. 

                                                            ***

To add misery on top of misery, the temperature outside didn’t get any better the closer nightfall got. You also hadn’t had a decent meal or sleep in the last couple days and it wasn’t helping in trying to keep your head on the goal. Still, you did what you agreed to do, lingering by the helicopter to keep an eye on what Yuri was doing. For the most part, he seemed to run into problem after problem, though he was very vague about it. 

However, you did catch a look he tossed you at some point. 

“Are you sure prison warden is not more your calling?” he asked, “Would explain you sneaking off with the guard.” 

“What are you talking about?” 

“I may be busy, but I still saw you two sneaking off to back of church,” Yuri explained, getting back into the pilot’s seat again. “I was not born yesterday.” 

As much as you wanted to deny that, you knew he was looking for anything to get a rise out of you. He had been doing it all day. For what aim? You weren’t sure. Still, your short conversation with Enzo wasn’t lost on you. So, you instead took in a small breath, hugging your arms tightly around yourself as another shiver ripped up your spine. 

“You know that nobody here trusts you, right?” you asked, gesturing with your head toward the church and where you knew Murray was watching on. Probably for some confrontation–which you were sure was going to come along eventually if you had to continue to talk to Yuri and freeze out by the helicopter. 

“I don’t care about opinions of a traitor and a bunch of Americans,” Yuri replied with a scoff, taking a moment from looking over the console to glance toward you, arms resting on his knees. 

“I know that, but you’re forced along here,” you replied, tilting your head. “I’m guessing you’re trying to gain some control over the situation. Once you get the helicopter working, they have me and don’t need to rely on you. So, you’re stalling to buy yourself time until the prison catches up or some government officials get here. Which is it?”

“You watch too many movies,” Yuri replied, making you shrug. 

“Yeah, maybe. You must just be a shitty pilot who has no idea what he’s doing.” It was juvenile, but he had been taking pot shots at you all day and he certainly didn’t bother with professionalism. 

“You make a lot of observations, but Yuri has some of his own,” he said, stepping out of the helicopter to stand in front of you fully. As much as there was a heavy sense of mockery to his tone, you could tell you hit a bit of a nerve. “You did not expect me to be here either, so now you are looking for way to keep relevant. You either hover here or flutter around Antonov, whoever gives in first.” 

“I’ve interacted with him one-on-one just once,” you stated with a scoff. 

“Isn’t that all it takes?”

“The hell is that supposed to mean?” 

“Mudak!” Well, this wasn’t going to help your case. Still, Enzo walked up toward the both of you, which gave you a few moments to take a couple breaths at the hot coles that started to settle in your gut. “We have heard enough out of you. Fix the helicopter. I will not tell you again.” 

“Yes,” Yuri said, “Of course. While you are here, I suppose you are going to take American pilot? Really give an in-depth review of how to get out of here?”

“You–” The retort died in your throat as Enzo surged forward. 

It wasn’t a fully fledged fight, but it was certainly close to one as he grabbed the front of Yuri’s jacket and shoved him back against the side of the helicopter with an audible metallic crunch. You didn’t understand the string of Russian he let out, but the tone wasn’t pleasant and it didn’t change once he switched to English as Murray finally arrived, jogging up behind you as he demanded to know what was going on. 

“Make one more threat, comment, or waste more time, I will put a bullet in your head and give the job of getting this in the air to the American pilot to save us the trouble,” he stated, shoving Yuri back finally. “Get the helicopter working.” 

Feeling a headache coming on, you shook off Murray’s questioning hold on your arm as you turned to walk toward the church. As much as you knew this was the only way to get out, you were done dealing with him for the night. Still, you didn’t head inside just yet, placing your hands on your hips as you let out a heavy breath. The whole situation was getting ridiculous but in a way it had been slowly digging under your skin, the pressure and cold not helping any. 

“You alright?”

You were surprised to hear Enzo, his voice a lot closer than you were expecting. Still, you glanced toward him before waving a hand somewhat. 

“Yeah, yeah,” you replied, “I’ve heard worse. I’m just sick of him.” 

“You are not only one,” he said with a huff. 

“I also just don’t like having someone fight my battles for me, but he’s been at me all day so I guess I appreciate it,” you said, turning to look at him fully, “I…Is your name really ‘Enzo’?”

“No,” he replied, some amusement settling into his expression, “It is Dmitri.” 

“Thanks, Dmitri,” you said with a small grin. 

“I assume you don’t want to be called ‘American pilot’?” 

You let out a quick laugh, giving him your name as you extended your hand to shake in a formal, but rather lighthearted gesture. 

Dmitri’s grip was firm, a part of you at least relieved at the friendliness, even if he had to defend you against some unflattering insinuations. Still, you figured you might as well see if there was anything you could do to help out Joyce and Hopper, considering you weren’t about to spend more time with Yuri that night. 

It was far from over anyway, considering you walked in on Hopper having a rather intense conversation with someone on the phone.